When All You Can Do Is Cry

Chapter 4 :Bestfriend breakdown😭😭

I lay on my bed starring at the fan as it span making the hair on my body rise because of the small breeze it released. I couldn't even sleep because when I closed my eyes I would see her soft hazel eyes ,with a wide smile on her lips as she waved at me. Her constant smile would make me tear up until I awoke.

Today I was going to face everyone's gaze as they all judge me , I tried to postpone going to school but my father only allowed me a week off. That whole week I spent crying in my room or looking at the ceiling.

" Morning Mrs Thompson." My best friend spoke.

"Morning Jacob, Bradley is in his room." My mother answered as she took her keys and left.

"Okay thank you." Jacob rushed up the stairs and sighed as he stood in front of my room trying to open it but the door wouldn't barge."Brad open the door man."

"Go away Jacob." I softly answered

"Dude you been locked up here for to long."

"Not long enough."

"Brad you are missing out on the fun."

"How can I have fun when I ruined a broken girls life?"

"Dude you didn't ruin her life ,she was asking for it." I stood up from my bed and opened the door to see Jacob statisified face as he said those words what he didn't know was my heart broke even more because I knew the truth.

"She never asked for this man, all we did was make her already broken life even worse."

"Dude have you forgotten all about those times she derespected us." Jacob tried to defend himself.

"Maddy was kind and smart, she never hurt us yet we fought her!" I shouted in Jacobs face I could feel that I had already started to cry.

"Dude don't act holy now have you forgotten you were the first person to start bulling her!" Jacob shouted even louder and took a step closer.

"That was because I loved her and I didn't understand how to express my feelings but you were supposed to be my bestfriend and stop me from hurting her but you just stood there when I tore her picture of her father!" I yelled

"No ,no Bradley you are not going to put your bulling problem on me. If you really loved her you would have stopped but you didn't and thats on you not me not any one of our friends!" Jacob yelled in my face but I stopped breathing as I took in his words he was right I was the main bully, I didn't protect her, I couldn't blame anyone but myself it is my fault she died , I caused her death. I felt dizzy, my body was shaking "It really was my fault." Just as I said those words I fell into a dark abyss. I heard Jacob shouting my name but I couldn't hear what he was saying as I fainted

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It was career day at school and Maddy had decided to tell everyone about what her father did for America.

"Maddison, you are up next after Joline."Mrs Smith spoke as she checked the class list.

"Who are you going to talk about Maddy?" Alex asked. Alex was Maddys only friend and protected in Elementary school but unfortunately Alex had to move to California after his Grandfather's death.

"My dad." Maddys soft melodic voice answered.

"You mean your dead dad." I joked and everyone laughed making my grin widen.

"Class keep quiet." Joline talked about her lawyer mother.

"Maddy come up."

"Morning class I am Maddy and I'm going to talk about my dad. My dad was a war hero ,he fought in the Vietnam as a soldier, he was a soldier for 10 years before he was sent out to participate in the Vietnam war. He had been in many wars before this one and everytime he came back stronger than ever. My father would come back from war with some souvenirs from his travels just for me."

"To bad you never going to see him anymore. Maddy now you left with old souvenirs of an old dead man." I said as Maddy started crying.

" They are not old they are my treasure." She burst out crying.

" Ok settle down Bradley, you do not talk to others like that apologies immediately."

"I'm not going to apologize to such a brat."

"Bradley..." The bell rang before she finished and I took my bag and ran.

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