[KOUSUKE] Behind The Screen -Insensitive-

Behind The Screen -Insensitive- One Shot

I was insensitive person. Everyone knew that, and I myself couldn't agree more. But I never thought that my insensitiveness could hurt the person I loved very much. I loved him, and he did so. We knew that it's hard for me to say 'I love you' to people. He understand that, though he always said those three words to me. Maybe I was being too overwhelmed. I didn't know that deep inside he wished for me to say it too. We were together, but there's no announcement or something like official, just approval from other members.

I didn't know that he was bearing a jealousy toward Yuuki who recently closed to me. I didn't know he tried to be tough and silently shed a tears when Yuuki flirted with me. I was so stupid for not realizing it and couldn't get away. I felt that he slowly drifted away from me. He spent his time more with Kai who he once said that loved him like a mother.

There's a day where Kai talked to me if I'm serious with him. I said I did.

"Then don't hurt him!" he gritted his teeth at me. I was actually a bad tempered person. If Ryouga wasn't there with him, I probably would punch him on his face.

I trully loved him. Why he thought that I didn't love him?

I didn't know that he heard our conversation in tears. I was lost of why people got angry at me, even Kai who usually kind.

I was insensitive. Though my mind was filled with him, but in reality I spent my time with Yuuki. Though it was Yuuki who always stick with me. And I didn't know he started to give up on me.

He drifted away and more away from me. My chest felt tight. I didn't know that at the same time he also faced a hardship. The hardship which caused him bear much stress.

And then came a day where everyone had a serious talk.

"We should end this, before everything turn bad" said Ryouga.

'End what?'

He walked toward me. His eyes swollen I knew he was cried. But I still didn't know I'm the cause of his tears.

"Let's end this, Kou-chan."

His voice was so soft but filled with knifes. My mind gone blank.

"Why?" that's the only word I could mouth.

"I can't. It's hurt very much" he cried, there's no a bright sunny smile on his face, only tears. And finally knew I was wrong.

He glanced at Yuuki and then back to me. "You probably have other person you love and loved you too equally" he said.

"No, no...you are wrong..."

"Stop it. Please, just let me go"

"No way...no way..."

I was stunned in my place, watched him gone from my sight. My chest hurt so much. Why it should end when we still in love with each other?

Yuuki came to me with a regret face and patted my shoulder. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be a third party" he said. "I will try to talk to him"

"No" I refused. "It's me who have to talked to him. It's me who should encourage him to come back on my side" I said to him. Determined myself.

"I see"

.

But the reality, we couldn't even talk at each other because of busy with preparation of upcoming concert.

Until the day of concert, where we stood in front of all our fans. He slowly talked.

"You guys loved Choutokkyuu right?" he started.