I'm Not Sure of My Feelings For You (Harry Styles and Camila Cabello story)

Chapter 21 Secrets

  "Vanessa can I talk to you privately?" I'm shaken up. I thought that I would never see Vanessa again, I always would stay clear of the part of town that she lived in.

  "Privately? Ha. You're funny. I have a child nothing is private, plus who is going to watch her?"

I think for a second, then an idea pops into my head.

  "Cam-Cam can watch her!" The little girl smiles at me, and I get a feeling that she isn't apart of me.

  "You want me to leave my babygirl with a complete stranger? I don't think so." She states flatly, emphasizing the word my.

  "Well she's mine too." I cringe just thinking that I have a daughter with Vanessa.

 "Yeah well I was actually there for her! Ugh Fine I have no other choice."

She hands me her phone number, and walks away with little Darcy.

At the beach house there is tension between Cam and I.

  "Cam? Are you alright, love?" She faces me, her features are mesmerizing.

  "Yeah...I'm fine." Her tone is too flat, and depressing for me to handle.

  "Babe, will you watch Darcy tonight?" Her facial expresssion changes from depressed to confused.

                    Cam's P.O.V:

Why does he want me to watch Darcy? He doesn't even know her, neither do I?

  "Why do you want me to watch Darcy?"

I'm so confused, and its his fault. Before him I was hardly confused, but he makes my head spin bad and good.

  "I have to talk to...Darcy's mum." There was a long pause between talk to and Darcy's mum.

  "How do you know her."

I try to keep my sudden jealousy on the down low, Darcy's mother is absolutely gorgeous.

  "She's an old friend of mine, and I have to talk to her about our "past."

He uses air quotes around past. A pang of jealousy hits me, and I stand to my feet.

  "So what you're asking me is to watch her daughter while you go and have fun or "talk" with her mother? And you think I'm ok with this? What kind of past? I'm not used to this "relationship" that we have, so if you could fill me in that would be helpful."

My temper has risen, and I just want to sleep it off. Harry's nostrils flare with anger, and his eyes darken. I suddenly want to take all my words back, and hide in a corner, but I know I did the right thing.

His shoulders relax, but there is still a burning flame in his eyes.

  "Why are you so damn frustrating? Just watch the kid for an hour or two, while I talk to an old friend which just happens to be her motherfucking mother!"

He shouts at me, and I feel as if my hard shell has changed into a feather. He lets out a breath and sits beside me, I cower from how close he is.

  (Listen to Through the Dark by One Direction)

There is pain in his eyes.

  "Cam, don't be scared of me...please? I need you to help me, I don't want you to be scared of me."

His hand rests gently on my thigh, and I don't flinch. I smile at him to show that he isn't scary to me.

  "Harry I don't like when you yell at me, it makes me feel small. You only scare me when you're yelling." I pause to breathe. "My father used to hit, and yell at me when I was younger. It was and still is very traumatic, and by hearing someone yell it just brings back memories." I feel like the world has been lifted off my shoulders just by telling Harry that.

  "You're the only one who knows, besides my mother."

He bends down infront of me, takes my hands in his.

He lifts my chin (I have become very fond with this action.)

  "Cam I'm sorry I didn't know." He runs his hand through his hair, and my pulse quickens.

  "It's fine, really." I add a reassuring smile at the end. "I will watch Darcy, but can you promise that you will come back to me?" He smiles at my request.

                        Always.

So I have a big book report due soon and I'm on page 65 and there is like 200 something so I have to really read that O.O My school is closed for tomorrow! Woohoo!

In other news my great uncle died today and we were sort of close. It is tough so if I don't update right away its either because family from Italy and Canada are coming or my book report. Plus I have a huge placement test:( ugh soo much work! Follow me on Twitter @/ letmalikstyles1 and Instagram @/ camarryislife which is this book's IG page. Thanks night:P