Loving him still

Remainders of the past

Bonnie pov:
It was the last day in Arkansas. I got up to see everyone was already awake and getting dressed. I felt I was behind so I got dressed the fastest way I could being pregnant and we were out on our way back to the apartment to get the last of the stuff before our flight in a couple hours. As we arrived Clyde and Andrew started to carry the stuff I tried to help too. A: uh-uh drop it loads of stress and labor is bad for Naomi. I chuckled to myself. B: fine I'll just watch. As they carried the last piece of furniture which was a mirror a piece of  paper had dropped. A: Bon, get that for us please. B:yeah alright I'll put it in the garbage. As I began to put it in the garbage I noticed the small shadowing of what seemed like writing on the paper. As I unfolded it tears welded up my eyes. The letter stated: Dear Bonnie-Marie, I figured you would move out of here sooner or later. Hopefully, your happy with a guy that makes you truly happy aka Andrew. I'm sorry about abusing you mentally and physically. I guess I still knew you loved Andrew and I would never amount to him. I drank to try to forget the things I did to you and the thoughts of you leaving me for Andrew. Obviously if you got this letter you come to find out I died in that car accident. I'm sorry to say but if it really did happen it would've been a suicide. But I've been through to much to do that. I will always be in love with you bon, you meant and still mean the world to me. Hopefully we see each other again it's a small world after all and sooner or later I will come looking for you. I know your taking this all in right now and I'm sorry for throwing this all in you but I can't just let you think I'm dead for the rest of your life. I love you Bonnie and I always will. Until we meet again Babes;)
-C.S
I was shocked I never thought about why they wouldn't let me see the body or anything. Which mad me bad because I never gave his death to much attention I would just cry sometimes. I felt a shocking since of relief because I got an apology I always wanted. I had never been abused like how he abused me. Caleb would hit me with things near by than throw me in the corner after he beat me senseless that's when I got really good at makeup. I tried to work out more but I barely did due to the pain. Till this day I still have places where it hurts. I still have a permanent bruise on my calf and when anybody asks about it I tell them some story about a flight of stairs or me being clumsy. When it really was just me being a abused. I couldn't even imagine hating him for it I started to blame my self for everyone else's results. A:Bonnie. Andrew waved to take me out of deep thoughts. He looked concerned. I gave him a reassuring smile. B: I'm fine cmon let's go. As we walked out of the place I've lived in for years I smiled knowing that I could always come back.
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