Unsteady

Prologue/-

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"F*uck you Caden!"

My head spun and my body swayed sluggishly in the direction of my target.

Caden Mcdade.

Unluckily for him my attention was fully set on destroying the first person I laid eyes upon and that happened to be the unfazed boy before me. He scowled in my direction and abruptly stood up broad and tall, his menacing but droopy hazel coloured eyes stared me down like the waste of space I was.

"Get out of here Sadie, I'm in no mood to argue with your drunken state"

My eyes narrowed into thin slits and I gritted my teeth, I knew I was pathetic, picking a fight out of randomness because of my own personal issues but I needed a distraction, preferably something that could fuel my anger and sorrow and give me a reason to be reckless.

The boy only a few steps away from me who once meant so much was now a stranger and as much as it kills me to admit it but it was my own doing. I guess the reason I was doing this was because I wanted the attention, his attention, but I ruined everything after the incident when my main priorities changed to getting wasted and smashed most days of the week. I became a heartless bi*tch, careless towards my actions.

Caden dragged his feet towards the exit but I shoved his chest back harshly, pulling my hand back I slapped his chest again trying to get some sort of reaction out of him. I knew fully well I'd crossed the line by the way his jaw worked angrily and his chest rose and fell at a rapid pace. Thinking about the last time we were together in the same room pulled at my heart strings as I took another daring swing but Caden snatched my wrist and squeezed it painfully.

"Don't make me repeat myself Sadie. Get the f*uck away from me"

He released my wrist and barged past me, making sure to knock my shoulder sharply on the way out. The door loudly slammed shut and echoed around the nearly isolated room despite the defending music. Heat rushed to my cheeks in exasperation.

An empty feeling washed over me like a bucket of ice cold water as I slumped down to the floor in despair. Letting out a desperate cry I launched my fist into the floor, once it collided with the wooden tiles I hissed in pain and cradled my injured hand.

The previous events from earlier replayed in my mind as tears welled up in my eyes.
Why did I even bother turning up to some pathetic party in the first place? I asked myself inwardly. Emotions and alcohol were the perfect recipe for disaster.

Scooping myself off the floor I violently swayed to the side like I was traveling on an unsteady boat. Snorting at my unsteadiness I managed to make my way into the crowd of sweaty drunken ass*holes.

Although everyone I passed was either extremely intoxicated, stoned out of their mind or both they still recognised me as the broken, damaged girl from a mile away. Making sure to give them the stinking eye I wrestled my way through the endless amount of people, not caring whether I'd purposely elbowed them on my way.

Finally I made it into the lounge area where my eyes blinked rapidly in annoyance once they locked onto Caden's. Rolling his eyes he took off into the other room but I was already dozily stumbling after him. A group of boys and girls I'd vaguely recognised from College erupted into laughter at something one of them had said but suddenly pursed their lips as I passed them in a hurry. A few looks of sympathy were passed my way but I flipped them the finger as if the fact that they thought I was in a vulnerable state didn't bother me.

My feet carried me towards the double back doors that led out into a luxurious garden with blue lights laced in with the trees and bushes. Shaking my head I tip toed down the stone path into the darkness. I could make out a dark figure near by as I trudged towards him.

"Caden!" I yelled into the pitch black.

The figure turned around looking alarmed but sagged in relief once he saw it was just me, "Come back for round two?"

I furrowed my eyebrows, "What is your problem?"

Barking a laugh he strolled towards me, his dark hair swaying against the wind, "My problem? Well my problem is that some crazy bit*ch won't leave me alone and what I've apparently done to her is still a mystery to me"

"Don't bullsh*t me Caden, you know me! I'm sick of this now"

He dragged a hand down his face in distress, "I don't care anymore Sadie, you made your decision and decided to ruin your life. You lost me a long time ago and there's nothing you can ever do to change that! Now leave"

I frowned, "I could change, Caden for you-"

He cut me off with a bitter chuckle, "People like you can't change Sadie. Besides everyone knows after what happened to Dylan you're just some unstable waste of space!" He seethed.

My eyes doubled in size, but he wasn't finished yet, just like a ticking time bomb it was only a matter of seconds before he blew up and damaged anyone in sight.

"You're toxic! You ruined me, every single piece of me destroyed, all because of you. I risked everything for you Sadie! You know what? I wish the roles were reversed with you and Dylan, then everyone could just get on with their lives a lot more easily-"

He wasn't able to finish he sentence because somewhere along the lines of his harmful words all the fury and rage that bubbled beneath me rose to the surface. Before I could fully process my actions a heavy stone ornament was clutched in my hand and smashed against Caden's temple.

His body thudded to the ground and blood oozed everywhere. Cupping a shaky hand over my mouth to muffle my screams my knees dug into the ground as I violently shook Caden's unresponsive body.

"Sh*t Caden I'm so sorry..." I repeated in a whisper as I continued to shake him, "I never meant for any of this to happen"

I debated whether to call for help or make a run for it, they'd never know it was me, but before I could even stand up on my two feet a high pitch scream filled my ears. Horror and dread was laced in her tone.

I was like a dear caught in head lights when a group of students all rushed out to see what the commotion was about, and before I knew it the sound of police and ambulance sirens erupted through the streets.

I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in my green orbs like water in a glass that was unbalanced and too full. My life ended before it barely began and I became just as unsteady as I was before. Emotionally drained I took on what was yet to come but didn't expect any good to come out of it, little did I know.