The Dog's Kitten

6. Dreams

"NOOOOO! MUMMY!"

"RUN JAMES! RUN!"

Evil laughter fills my mind, causing me to fall to my knees, clenching my ears in a painful death grip, and I scream, "STOP! MAKE IT STOP!"

The laughter gets louder and louder, until everything stops, everything stops moving, and it gets deathly quiet as I sit there unmoving, seemingly frozen in time, just then, a giant explosion sounds, whipping my hair back and forth, fire blazes everywhere, the screams of agony soon fill my ears and I can't breathe, just then my mum runs up to me, pushing me harshly, my three year old self not wanting to leave her, "GO! GO NOW JAMES!"

I run and run, far away from my burning home, and m-mother. The tears course violently down my burning cheeks, and I drop to my knees, and scream, scream for my mum, for my once happy life, for my baby brother, for my future. Then I stop, and my eyes roll to the back of my head in exhaustion.

"James! James!"

My eyes open groggily and at first I see my mum, but it soon turns into the worried face of Ciel, "James!"

He embraces me in a death grip, "You almost gave me a heart attack!"

He strokes my cheeks gently with the pads of his thumbs as he looks into my eyes with fear, "What the hell was that?"

Hot tears trail down my face and he cradles me, "S-She's g-gone d-dead i-i-i-n the f-f-f-i-ire!"

He rocks back and forth, "Shh, you're safe now, you'll be ok, everything will be ok."

Just then our tent opens and Joker walk in quickly, worry etched on his face, "What's wrong, did one of the snakes get out?"

Ciel turns and glares, "No, Kitten had a night terror."

Jokers eyes turn into sorrow, "Oh, I'm sorry, I'll leave you."

He nods curtly before leaving the tent and shooing what I'm assuming is quite a crowd outside the tent, but at the moment I don't give a fuck.

Ciel whispers softly in my ear, "Shh, I've got you."

I wrap my arms around his back tightly in a death grip never wanting to let go, I put my face in the crook of his neck, I'm shaking violently, the images still flashing wildly in my eyes, when I breathe in his sent, my body starts to calm, and the images very slowly start to disappear, soon I'm just trembling, my tears have finally stopped and Ciel sits back, once again looking into my eyes, "Will you be ok?"

I laugh humorlessly, "I'll never be ok."

He just sighs, and wipes my cheek, "Why don't you sleep with me the rest of the night, it's only 12."

I just nod and stand up shakily, letting him lead me to his bunk, when we get comfortable, he hugs me close to him, my back to his chest, he rubs soft circles on my thigh, making my eyes droop, he even hums a lullaby, which brings me really close to giggling, because this is definitely not the cold hearted Ciel I know. His soft breathing tickles my ear and I fall asleep slowly once more, and this time, there's no screaming, deaths, or my life being ruined, instead I'm laying in a beautiful field of flowers with Ciel, him humming the same lullaby once again.

...............

When I wake up, my back is cold, and it's bright out, then I notice I'm not in my own bunk, but instead, I'm in Ciel's, what happened? Oh crap! I'm missing practice!

I jump out of the bunk and run to my clothes chest, and grab a loose white shirt and some stretchy pants, I put them on quickly and dash out the tent, running into someone in the process, I rub my head and look up to see a taller boy, obviously a noble by his clothing, he has light blonde hair and bright blue eyes, he glares at me, "Where is Ciel?"

He says this loudly, and I slap a hand over his mouth looking for any on lookers, when I see none I remove my hand and hiss, "Don't say his name, he's William here!"

The blonde glares even harsher, "And who the hell are you to be bossing me around?"

I poke his chest harshly, "Unless you and William want to die you call him by his real name here!"

The boy raises his hand to hit me and I flinch when he makes impact with my face, and it was a good hit, it left my cheek stinging, just then I hear an angry growl, "Aloise what the hell are you doing?"

I drop my head and turn away from Ciel so he doesn't see the mark that was surely left, he steps in front of me protectively, and Aloise huffs in annoyance, "He was telling me what to do! And why are you calling yourself William?"

Ciel looks around quickly before narrowing his eye at Aloise, "I'm on a case, and you being here is jeopardizing it!"

Aloise rolls his eyes and gives Ciel a flirty smile, attaches himself to his side, pushing me away harshly, he bats his eye lashes, "Say, William, why don't you give me a show?"

Ciel gives him a look of disgust, "Get away."

I give them a weird look, how well do they know each other, the way Aloise is hanging off of him, makes it seem like they're da- oh, they are! I blush well, uh that's cute I guess.

I tiptoe away while they're talking, they look good with each other. When I get into the practice tent, everyone, and I mean everyone, stops what they're doing to look at me, I turn a deep scarlet, why are they staring I look to make sure I did actually get all my clothes on, and I sigh in relief when I do, but then my breath hitches, th-they can see my tattoo, I quickly leave the tent to return to mine when I see Ciel and Aloise still talking only Aloise is literally in his face, looking about ready to kiss. I shut my eyes when I feel tears sting in them.

I turn and dart for the city, when I finally reach it, I look for a familiar alley I can disappear into. When I see the one that I once called home, I dashed for it, and hid behind the trashcans like I always did. And I cry, why do I feel like this? Why am I crying? It's not like I actually like the damn earl! Besides I should be happy he has someone who loves him! 

But the thought doesn't comfort me in the slightest, I just need need to forget about him. I curl up in a ball, the cold nipping at my exposed skin, and stare at the dirtied brick wall in front of me. I just need to go back to the way I was before, after all, it's the life that's meant for me. I knew I shouldn't have agreed to stay with the earl.

Two days later

I'm running through the alleys chasing a cat when I'm suddenly stopped by a giant shadowy figure, causing me to gasp, and turn around to run the other only to be blocked by another, when one of them pulls back their hood I sigh in relief, it's just Joker and Dagger.

I smile, "You guys startled me!"

Joker gives me a sad look, "I'm so sorry kitten."

I frown in confusion, "What do you me-"

And a sharp pains feels in the back of neck once again, and the world goes black, why does this keep happening to me?