How does one person
cause so much happiness
and then so much pain.
I told myself not to fall
because i knew his history.
I fell anyway.
I couldn't stop myself.
He knew how to charm me from the start.
Now that we are done I question it.
Did he mean anything he said to me?
Should the time in his arms mean anything?
Did I mean anything?
Every possible question
has been flowing through my mind.
I can't even look at him.
My heart breaks all over again
but there's nothing I can do to stop it.
In the end, it's my fault
for believeing I had a chance.
I should have known better.
We are from two different worlds.
He is popular and outgoing while
I'm a loner, shy and invisible.
Nothing will ever change that.
I'm just a ghost trying to feel alive
in this lonely heaven called reality.