|You Know You Love Me|✔️

«Chapter 5»

Calum

"Calum...we're so sorry."

I sigh and turn to look at them, I knew this was coming. I was hoping we could put this off until later but I guess not.

"Yeah, uh I guess you guys are." I say and turn away from them again. I wasn't ready to fully accept their apologies yet, as much as I wanted to, I just couldn't.

"Could we come in? To maybe talk?" Ashton asks and I sigh again.

"I mean it's Luke's room too and I'm sure he's gonna let you in, so sure." I finally open my door, walking over to my bed and laying down.

I watch Ashton and Michael walk in after Luke and take a seat on Luke's bed. Luke doesn't though, he walks over to me and sits down next to me. I give him a smile and he returns it quickly.

"So." I say after its silent for a few minutes.

"So." Michael says and I sigh.

"You said you wanted to talk. So talk. Or get out." I didn't mean to be so harsh but it just hurt to see them finally giving me attention, only after I collapsed and begged for it.

Ashton nods hurriedly. "We-I just wanted to say sorry...though you probably already knew that." He trails off but then takes a deep breath before finally looking up at me.

"But I know what we did was terrible and I know this is going to sound bad but I didn't even notice and it makes me feel like shit. We were so focused on Luke and everything that happened that we didn't stop to think that maybe we were doing too much. We weren't being fair, we didn't give you enough attention and I'm so sorry, you have no idea." I gulp but keep silent.

"We can sit here and apologize all day, for the rest of our lives but it still won't mean anything and I know we have to gain your trust again so that's what I'll do. I can't loose you Cal. I love you. I'm gonna spend the rest of my life proving that to you, to both of you. And this time around we'll both do it right. We'll go back to how it was before, when we were all happy and no one was left out. I'm so sorry Cal." Michael added and Ashton nodded along.

"I love you." Ashton added as well.

My eyes started to water, I couldn't remember the last time one of them said that. Well before they noticed me again, it was definitely rare. It used to be an everyday thing. An I love you said about a million times a day. But then it went to a monthly thing. And it felt so good to hear it again.

I shook my head slowly and wiped my eyes. "I-I love you guys too." I mumbled and Luke gave me a little hug.

"I-I forgive you." They both smiled and got up to hug me, I was trapped in the middle of the group hug and I almost regretted my next words. Almost.

"I just need some time." I mumble.

They pulled away with heartbroken expressions. "I'm sorry." I added but they both shook their heads.

"No, you shouldn't be sorry. We did something terrible and if you need time then...go ahead." Michael mumbled.

"It's to be expected. We were horrible. I'm so sorry baby." Ashton said with a closed throat, thick with tears. His eyes swimming with tears as well.

"I just-it's just a break. I need to...think about a few things." They both nodded again and Luke just watched on silently with sad eyes.

"C-can I be alone please?" I asked and they all nodded. Ashton and Michael got up and hesitantly hugged me. They both left with another, 'I'm sorry.' And 'I love you so much'.

But before Luke could leave I pulled him into a hug and buried my face into his shoulder. "Can you stay please?" I asked and he nodded quickly, wrapping his arms around me as I sniffled.

They hurt me so much and I knew they were sorry but it didn't stop it from hurting.

I started to sob into Luke's arms as he held me, but he just rocked us back and forth slightly and rubbed my back. He whispered sweet nothings into my ear and it felt nice to have him here for me.

"It hurts." I whimpered and he buried his face in my hair.

"I know Cally. I'm so sorry, I should've done something, I'm so sorry baby." When I continue to cry, not showing any signs of stopping, he pulls away to kiss my forehead and look at me worriedly. "What can I do to make it better? I love you baby. It's okay."

I just shook my head and managed to whimper out, "Can we just cuddle? I just need you to hold me." He nodded immediately and we laid down on my bed.

He held me tightly until my sobs stopped and turned to cries, then to whimpers and sniffles until they finally stopped all together.

"I love you." He mumbled and kissed my lips slowly.

I smiled into it and cuddled into him more when he pulled away. We laid in silence until it was interrupted by a small snore. I looked up and giggled at Luke. He was sleeping soundly and I kissed his chest lightly.

"You've always done so much for me. I love you Lukey." I whispered. My head was starting to pound from all the crying and I sighed but got comfortable in Luke's arms before I managed to fall asleep.

I needed time and I was glad the boys understood. But I wasn't quite sure if I believed myself when I said, it was just a break.

I didn't want to hurt anymore and I didn't want to feel like this ever again.

🎁🎉 Happy Birthday Zayn!🎉🎁

Stay lovely🌹

-Olivia