Where & When?

How,

"You wrap me up in your arms, but I still feel cold. You touch me with so much love , but I still can't feel your presence. My heart aches for your body to surround mine, to fill my loss of love and to sooth my need for adventure. I want you to interact with me every morning, telling me things about your day as I do in return. You would never let go of me, and I would never let you let go. I wanted you, near, close, but it would never happen. Fill me with energy as you do every skype call, take me on journeys that I would never experience without you. Touch me with not lust but love and the disire of our bodys aching and needing each other.

Love me."

I clutched my blanket, my eyes still shut imagining him kissing ever inch of me. I gasp for air as I squirm slightly cursing under my breath in delight.

My eyes open to the sight of my alarm on the floor, its ears broken it's glass shattered against my wood mahogany floor.

I was dreaming about him again, I longed for him to be with me, to hug me, touch me, kiss me. This long distance relationship was a roller coaster of heart ache. We would plan to meet up but then something would come happen either with the flight, passport or he would be late for the flight, and every time we planned to see each other and it back fired I would hide under my covers upset at the world, at him and worse, at myself for letting myself fall in love with a man millions of miles away. But after ever back fire he would call me and I would remember why I loved him, and why I will always love him.

My friends always worried about me, I loved them for that but, I could take care of my self.

I pick up my phone smiling at the spam of morning texts Jacob sent me. My phone chimes again, Tiffany.

To : Eliza

Hey where were u last nite? We called u like 4 times was ur phone out of batteri or    somthin?

I laugh at the phone, last night my friend Harvey was throwing a big bash, but i blew him off cause Jacob wanted to chat.

From : Eliza

Soz couldnt make it cuz Jacob wanted to chat on insta for a bit 😊😍

To : Eliza

R u kidding me?!?!

Odd, I never got this reaction from Tiff before.

From: Eliza

No.... 

To: Eliza

Im sorry liz but you cant keep blowing us off for an internet fantasy!

From: Eliza

Fantasy? Hes real not a dream

To Eliza:

HES A CATFISH 🐠 WHY CANT YOU SEE THAT!?!?

From: Eliza

Listen i just woke up and i dont have ⏱ for this, bye

To: Eliza

Sorry... just can you atleast show up, tomorrow? Harvey was upset that u didnt show so he's throwing another bash 🎉

From: Eliza

Its cool,, ill be there, see ya at school ✌️

I put down the phone sighing
" time to eat I guess," I quickly reply to one of Jacobs morning spams and get dressed in a long flannel, skirt, thigh high socks combat boots and a simple white T.
"Eliza can you come down here quickly?" Moms voice echoed through out my hallway, what she want now?

Slowly i make my way down stairs, contemplating my life and what I was doing with it. I suspected that my parents wanted to talk to me about my future so I was getting prepared for this argument about how I was 'wasting my senior year'.

I was tired of my parents judging my choices at life, and telling me what was wrong and what was right. It's inevitable though, they care for me. It's only natural to react this way as a parent.

I skip down stairs acting as innocent as a butterfly, ignoring my morning scenario.
"Yes?" I questioned, my mother looked puzzled.
"What do you mean yes?, you know why we called you down here." My mind raced, did they know about Jacob? were they going to ground me? I was having a mini panic attack until my mother blurted out.
"You're going to be late for school" I sigh in relief that she hadn't found out the biggest secret and chunk of my life which I kept hidden for over 4 years.