Breaking Up and Moving On

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Another real short story/essay.

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***I might have dedicated it to the wrong guy, but PEACE!~ ^^v 

I'm so happy for you, BTW. :))

And this is a stupid thing for me to dedicate this to you, but still. It's the PAST. ^o^v

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“I’ve decided to break up with you, I can’t do this anymore.”

                Have you ever heard this phrase?

                Have you ever said it to anybody?

                It hurts, doesn’t it?

                2011 February 18. Four days after Valentine’s Day. I said this to someone.

                The look on his face. A mixture of pain, hurt, and shock.

                He’s obviously bereft. I can’t look at him. He looked so … bereft.

                I can’t look at him anymore. I feel guilty. I feel bad.

                A year already passed. I already moved on, although at first it seemed that I can’t do it. But I survived. Now, let me think. Is breaking up really that hard? Or is moving on harder?

BREAKING UP

                Here it is, the GOODBYE.

                The guilt.

                The courage.

                The MOMENT.

                The awkward moment when you decide to tell him. They always say, “It’s like peeling off a band-aid: quick and painless.” Wait, what? PAINLESS? He has no idea what is going to happen, and … it’s over. You said it, and can’t take it back. He has no idea why, and you leave him there. So many questions running in his mind, thinking of a good reason why. He’s sad. He’s going crazy. And when you see him, GUILT. You’ll feel guilty of doing it to him. Now, this is still in the break-up stage. How? It’s an effect of what happened. It’s still about the break-up. Moving on is not yet on your mind. It’s still about breaking up. “Was it such a huge mistake?” “Should I take it back?” But something is holding you back. What is it? PRIDE? FEAR? FAILURE? REJECTION? Frightened that he might reject you again? Thinking that it is a failure if he might not want you back? Fearing that he might embarrass you in public? Fretting that your pride might lessen?

                And here enters MOVING ON.  Since you can’t do anything about it, you’ll probably decide to move on. HOPEFULLY.

MOVING ON

                The memories you miss.

                The empty nights.

                The petnames.

                The gifts.

                The future.

                ALL GONE.

                It’s a bit hard at first, I swear. But as time goes on, it gets easier and easier until you finally forget about him. It takes time, discipline, and patience to move on. Like what they say, “Moving on is like a marathon, if you keep looking back, you’ll never win.” The same with it, if you keep remembering the past. And also, you can’t be angry with it. Past is past, you have got to leave it alone. You can’t move forward with your life if you keep sticking with the past. Just cherish the moment, never look back, and live the moment.

                Those that got depressed when moving on – WRONG MOVE. You should be happy of what happened. You still have your friends and family. You won’t be alone. Just think of it as freedom.

                Say you love the person. Oops, correction – say you LOVED the person, he’s never worth it. You’re much better than how he thinks of you. That’s why you broke up, right? He’s not the right one.

                Always look at the bright side. Never think that you lost him, because the truth is, he lost you.  You should be happy. There are still many people out there that will truly love you, and never leave you.

                Have hope. Believe in destiny. It may sound foolish, but that’s how it goes. That’s what you need.

                HOPE, that someone out there is waiting for you. He’s also sad like you, because he didn’t find you yet.

                DESTINY, that someone is meant for you.

                LOVE, that you may have a lot of “true” loves, that there are a lot of guys that you might think “He’s the ONE.”. But only one of them will be your LAST love.

                So, what do you think? Which is harder: breaking up, or moving on?

                Well, whatever it is, remember one thing. “It will be, if you’re meant to be.”

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The End. :)

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