one month, one secret | chanbaek

f i v e

f i v e

Tomorrow, our relationship would end.

I hadn't talked to Baekhyun since the day we went to the amusement park.
I hadn't even seen him.
And it made me sick.
There were only days of our relationship left, and I wanted to use them to make Baekhyun smile.

Didn't he ask to be my boyfriend? Didn't he want to spend time with me?
After I finally started to... accept him, he doesn't talk to me.
Was he getting tired of me?
Well, then tomorrow would be a lucky day for him, because then he didn't need to spend time with me anymore.

Suddenly my phone let me come back to the reality. It was ringing, I took it and looked on the screen. "Baek:)", was written on it.

Without thinking much, I immediately picked up.

"Hello? Baekhyun?"

"Hello Chanyeol..."

"Baekhyun... How are you? Is everything fine? What were you thinking of not contacting me! Do you know how worried I was?"

The line went silent for a short time. All bad thoughts of him disappeared when I heard him laugh.

"Thank you for worrying, Channie. I'm sorry, I couldn't contact you. But I wanted to invite you to go to the cinema with me."

I smiled at the new nickname. I know it was dumb to just accept his apology and go with him, but I wanted to enjoy this day, with him.

-

I arrived at the cinema, with my eyes searching for a certain boy.
After some minutes, I still didn't find him, so I wanted to call him.
But before I could take out my phone, I was backhugged, having a familiar scent and aura around me.

I closed my eyes and enjoyed the seconds of the petite body, pressed to mine. I recognized that he was surprisingly cold.

I turned around and smiled brightly at him.

"I missed you, Baekhyun.", I said quietly, still smiling at him, satisfied to finally have the petite boy around me.

"I missed you, too, Chanyeol. Let's go inside, it's cold.", he said and took my hand, dragged me inside. His hand was really cold today, normally, it was pleasant warm.

-

I let him choose a movie, I wasn't very interested in watching a film.
I just wanted to be on his side.

We went in and sat down on out seats. I wanted to buy him popcorn, but he said that he wasn't hungry.

The movie started and Baekhyun's attention was on the screen.
My attention was at Baekhyun.
I just stared at him.
I watched him smile when something funny was said, I watched him pout when something sad happened. And for the first time, I thought about how beautiful he looked. I know, I already called his smile beautiful, but this human, right in front of me, was actually the most beautiful thing I ever saw.

I don't know how much time passed, since I was concentrating on Baekhyun, studying all his details and his incredible beauty, but when suddenly his eyes became glassy, my heart broke into thousand pieces.

Tears slowly made their way out of his eyes, rolling down his cheek, until they fell down on his clothes. He cried, quietly at the beginning, but soon he started to sob and cry more and more. I don't know why he was crying, I didn't even have a clue. Maybe because of the movie, I didn't pay attention to it. But it  actually was a happy movie.

Without thinking, I leaned forward, slowly putting my hand on his cheek. Fortunately we were sitting in the last row, alone. I looked in his tear filled eyes. He got quiet. He also looked in my eyes, all I could see was an affectionate stare. He quieted completely down and my lips were suddenly on his.

This was the first kiss in our whole relationship that was started by me.

All my feelings were in this kiss.

We didn't stop kissing.

We kissed again and again.

But suddenly, after some time, I felt tears, rolling down his cheeks again, but this time he cried without making a sound, not wanting to let go of me.

I held him in my arms, kissing him with all my affection, until the movie came to it's end and the lights were turned on again.

But the funny thing in this situation was, that I didn't know what these feelings, which were in the kiss and in myself, were or what they meant.

-

When we got out of the cinema, it was already getting dark. I held Baekhyun's hand. "Can I bring you home?", I asked, or begged, that would suit better. He nodded softly and we started to walk. We took the even longer way, just to be together longer and talk about things like what we were in our lives before we were born as Byun Baekhyun and Park Chanyeol or if we were also together in our lives before this one.

-

When we arrived at his door, he thanked me for the evening and let go of my hand, which immediately felt cold again.

But I had an idea.

"Baekhyun. Wait here, I'll come back in some minutes.", it was rather an order than a question, but Baekhyun stayed on his spot. I took it as an okay and started to run.

I ran home, as fast as I could, I didn't want to make Baekhyun wait, and went in. It was quiet, my parents must've been somewhere else, so I ran up to the room of my parents and searched something. When I found the key to the car, I mumbled: "Gotcha!", and ran outside again. I went into the car and started the motor. I had my driver license, but I wasn't 18 years old yet, so I wasn't allowed to drive the car without an adult, but I didn't even care a bit about that. I quickly drove to Baekhyun, he was still waiting on the same spot, shivering slightly because of the cold. I honked and he looked up, surprised because of the sound from the car and me sitting in it. He started to walk and opened the cardoor. "Since when can you drive and since when do you have a car?", he said and looked at me while grinning. "Since now and get in! We're going to be late!", I said and patted on the place next to me. He sat down and I started to drive.