I walked into class late again today. I walked to my desk and waited for him, he was always late too. Everyone was silent. It was the type of silence that occurred every day. It was the silence that occurs when a teacher has come past and told us to shut up.
Please send help. I think I like this boy. Actually, I think I love him.
Every day I sit and stare. I sit at my table at the back of the room and watch this boy from a far distance.
This boy’s name is Harry. Harry has curly hair and cute dimples. Harry is 18 and a half, which is 1 and a half years (estimated) older than me.
Harry sits in English class and he doesn’t notice me… but I notice him. I notice how when he smiles, it isn’t simply a smile, it’s a smirk. I notice that when he gets confused, he taps his pen on the side of the desk and sticks his tongue out. I notice that no matter what I do to get his attention… I don’t.
Today was the last day of our senior year. I decided this morning that after 4 years of liking- loving this boy, I would approach him. I would approach him and introduce myself. I would ask him if he would like to come to my 18th birthday party.
I walked into class late again today. I walked to my desk and waited for him, he was always late too. Everyone was silent. It was a different type of silence today. It wasn’t the silence that would occur normally every day. It was the type of silence that occurs when people are sad, when people’s hearts are hurting. It is a silence that occurs when a teacher has told us bad news. But this didn’t feel like regular bad news like a pop quiz or partner assigned project.
The teacher asked me to step outside, had I done something wrong?
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Every day I sit and stare. I sit at my table at the back of the room and watch the spare desk from a far distance.
The boy’s name was Harry. Harry had curly hair and cute dimples. Harry was 18 and shall be 18 forever. I miss you Harry but I know you don’t miss me because you never knew me. One day I will introduce myself and ask you to my 18th birthday party. I guess that will be soon Harry, because tonight I say goodbye forever too.
