I hate high school.
Now I know what you're gonna say "you won't remember high school" "it goes by quickly" "blah blah blah". But I'm serious. High school has become hell.
Just about anywhere outside of my house is hell.
Just a few things first before with get into the WHY
1. I'm a freshman
2. I'm a cheerleader (only freshie on the team)
3. I have no best friend
So back to the WHY I hate high school.
** Ignores me completely now. The other dude, *******, I was with does too. And my brother who isn't really my brother but best guy friend, *******, has picked his whore of a girlfriend over me. This girl yelled at me in front of everyone saying that I was flirting with my brother and in the end he chose his girl over me. Someone who has always been there or has known him longer.
Now, I have no friends. No family. And the whole school thinks I'm a little slut because the girlfriend I discussed up there thought it'd be cool to tell people that I have sex with guys whose girls dont put out.
It's Christmas break and I have had guys texting me asking me to send them nudes and booty pics and to have sex with them because of this bitch. And having all of this "sexual attention" gives me extreme anxiety.... When I was 11, you see, my cousin who was 15 molested me.. I have trust issues. I don't get close to males, I can't be touched without flinching or turning a corner without the fear of being thrown down. I can't close my eyes without wanting to tear my eyes out. I can't even kiss a dude without my body shivering.
So with THIS bullshit at school. . . it just kind of adds to that fear and anxiety. And can't fucking take it and no one understands you know? I can't talk to anyone about it.. they don't know. Its just hard.
I don't think I'll make it 4 more years at this high school, I dont even think I can handle the second semester... I wanna move schools. I wanna talk to my dad. But my family's not the most talkative people, especially my father so it's just *sigh* whatever...
Thanks for reading, sorry for the nagging and pardon my language I get pissy when I write stuff like this. Just wanna make sue I get this stuff down in case I disappear or die or whatever... Anywho. Read ya later -Megan
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All The Things I Wish I Had Said
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