falling for the wrong guy// dolan twins

Chapter 11

When I get home it was 4:00pm so I had about an hour to chill out and get my nerves relaxed. Why am I so nervous? He's the one who cheated in the first place and I am the one freaking out. That hour flew by and I started getting ready at 5:00pm. I got my black tight dress with the lace back and threw on some cute sandals. I flat ironed my hair and put on my makeup. It was about 10 minutes till 6 when I finished getting ready. I started practicing what I was going to say in the mirror. 

"So, these past few weeks we haven't been hanging out as much and I want to explain why. So last week I saw you kissing another girl in your car at the mall. I was there with Ethan because something happened that day and he was trying to make me feel better. We haven't been here for each other the last few weeks. I am not mad about you cheating because I think I like Ethan and I tried to avoid these feelings and I didn't want them to be true but they are. I am so sorry I just don't think us is really working out anymore." I practiced those words over and over again and I think I can handle saying them to his face now. I walked to the living room where I saw Grayson's car pulling in. I grabbed my purse and waited for him to come knock on the door.

KNOCK KNOCK

I open the door and there is Grayson standing in front of me smiling and he looks amazing. I freeze for a second and it felt like time stopped. I am supposed to be with him the good guy, the guy who loves me and the guy who is amazing and Ethan was someone who I couldn't imagine my self being with, but here I am falling for the wrong guy. I snap back into reality when I felt Grayson kiss my lips. 

"Babe you look stunning wow." Grayson said smiling and grabbing my hands. 

"Thank you Eth- Grayson so do you" I said so nervously, I almost said Ethan's name giving me a mini heart attack and I hoped Gray didn't hear it. Im guessing he did because he looked at me confused but I changed the subject quickly. 

"So are you ready to go?" I said smiling. We start to walk out the door and to his car. He opened the passenger door and helped me in. He is such a gentlemen. He gets in and we drive away. About 20 minutes later we arrive at the reastraunt and got seated. We order our drinks. Man this is going to be harder than I thought it was. We were silent the first few minutes until I broke it.

"So hows lacrosse going?" I said trying to cushion whats about to go down

"Amazing we are going to the states championship!" he says so happy. I smile and look down at the menu. "Emily whats wrong? Why did we come here tonight? Did something happen?" Gray says confused putting his hand on mine. 

"We need to talk about something and I couldn't do it in school.." I said about to go on when he interrupted me.

"You can talk to me about anything, I love you and I love hearing what you say." He said kissing my hand. Nothing came out of my mouth because this was the second time he has said I love you and I don't feel the same. I started sweating pulling my hand from his and I did not want to say it but I had to tell him the truth. Its not right of me if I don't...

"So Grayson, the last few weeks we haven't been completely honest to each other.." I said and he looked like he was about to talk. "Dont say anything until I'm done telling you the whole story. So last week I went to the mall with Ethan because something happened and he was there for me and wanted to make me feel better. When we go to the mall parking lot I saw your car..." I could see him look guilty. "I went up to say hi but I saw you kissing someone who wasn't me.." I paused.

"Emily, Its- Its not what you think I promise..." He said looking down. 

"The thing is you cheated on me and I was crushed but I haven't been honest with you either. Ever since we started doing to project and I started to become close with Ethan I started falling for him" I could see Grayson getting mad. "I started to hangout with him more and I did not think he liked me back so I tried so hard to get rid of these feelings buy trying to avoid him. It didn't work and I started really liking him.." He started shaking his head and looking down like he was about to burst but I didn't let him. "The day that you cheated I freaked out and when Ethan drove me home we kissed and I felt sparks. I wanted to tell you, but I just couldn't face you because you are such an amazing guy and I didn't want to hurt you.." I stopped and stared at him as he looked down in anger.

"So this is why every time I say I love you, you can't say it back because of Ethan?" He said in an angry tone. I shook my head yes. "Emily I cheated on you and it was an accident, I'm not gonna lie and say I didn't." 

"Were you kissing your partner for the project.." I said having tears in my eyes and my throat feeling like I had a lump in it..

"Yes and I am so sorry, but what you did wasn't-" Gray was saying but I interrupted him.

"She loves you, the way she looks at you in class explains everything. She wants you.." I said with a tear going down my face.

"And you want him. You want Ethan, you love Ethan. Now it makes sense, Every time I see you guys together you smile a way you never smile with me but I never connected the dots. Do you love him Emily and I want the truth.." He said. I stared at him with tears flowing out of my eyes. I never admitted I loved him to anyone and if I do admit it then its true. I sat there frozen with no words coming out of my mouth. "Emily, answer me. Do you love Ethan?" He says again with tears building in his eyes.

"I do, I love Ethan." I said and I could see the rage and hurt in his precious eyes. 

"Does he love you back?" He says with a tear rolling down his face now making my heartbreak into a million pieces. 

"I dont know," I said sniffling trying to stop crying. His teeth clinched together and he looked away. He was trying to gather his feelings and trying to make sense of this. I could tell because I know everything about him and all his feelings and looks. He turned back to me.

"Grayson I'm truly sorry I had no intention of this happening.." I said putting my hand on his. He pulled his hand away and closed his eyes as tears rolled down his cheeks. The waiter comes up to take our order. I look at Grayson staring at his eyes "I am sorry." I said getting my purse and kissing him on the cheek. "Im just leaving" I said looking at the waiter. I walked out of the restraunt and sat on a bench and started balling my eyes out. The first person I thought to call was Emma and so I did, but I couldn't talk. I texted her the address and told her to pick me up. About 10 minutes later she pulled up in her car and told me to hop in.

"What happened? Are you okay?" She says wiping the mascara running down my cheek.

"Can you take me somewhere?" I say telling her where to go.