But She Is My Teacher?

Am I gay?

October 10,2016 Jades P.O.V

I wake up after last night feeling happy and then I see my baby girl sleeping like a princess next to me. I sneak off to the kitchen to cook her some breakfast. I fix up some scrambled eggs with bacon and cheese and chopped up  green pepper. I also put some bacon on the side. I fix my self a plate as well and bring both into my room. I light a candle to make my room smell nice and I wake up the sleeping beauty. She rubs eyes and smiles at the sight of me. She takes the plate from to inspect what is on it. "yummy", "You haven't even tried it yet silly",  "I know but you made it so it has to be good", "well thanks". 

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Perrie's P.O.V

I wake up to the smell of a candle burning and bacon,  I look up and see Jade's beautiful face. Her food was so good, we sat and ate then she asked me something.

"Perrie, would you please be my girlfriend"

I was so caught off guard I didn't even know how to respond, of course I want to but I don't even know if I am gay, I just know that I am deeply in love with Jade. 

"Jade, listen all I know is that I have feelings for you I have never felt in my life before towards anyone else. Of course I want to be your girlfriend but I don't even know if I am gay."

"Oh Perrie, I just assumed-"

"Well don't" 

I dont know why I freaked out like that, but i did and I regret because I stormed out of her house without any of my stuff. I could hear call after me crying. I hate to bring her so much pain but I need time to figure m self out because everything happened so quickly. 

I sat on the stairs outside of her house, eventually she came out. I was waiting there for what felt like hours. 

She came outside and sat next to me. We didn't say anything for a long time. We were just trying to figure out what to say.

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Jades P.O.V

After a while I cleaned my self up after balling my eyes out. I decided to try and go find her being as she didn't have a car. I was thinking how she couldn't of gone far without you know shoes or a phone or any of her stuff. I was walking out the door surprised to see her sitting on my steps. I didn't say anything for a long time and neither did she. After about 5 minutes I took her hand and placed it in mine. 

She looked at me with puffy eyes and red cheeks just as i was. I said I was sorry for pressuring her to do something  she didn't want to do. She didn't say anything but she squeezed my hand. We sat there for another long period of time before Perrie spoke up and said she just needed some time to figure herself out. But from our past conversations she has never had a boyfriend or even had a crush on a boy. From that I can gather that she is a lesbian but is too  afraid to come out. I let go of hand. 

I asked if she wanted a ride home, she declined and went inside.

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Perrie's P.O.V

I didn't want to be home because I didn't want to be alone, well my siblings were there but I didn't feel like explaining why i wasn't home last night. Because I would hate lie to them, I hate lying. Jade didn't follow me inside. I heard her get in her car and drive off. I didn't even bother questioning where she may have gone because I knew she would be back. I went to the couch and fell asleep waiting for her to get back. 

I don't know how long I was asleep but it was still light outside, I saw her sitting in front of a fire just watching me sleep. 

"You're awake"

"Yes I am"

"Perrie-"

"Please call me your girlfriend"

While I was napping I had a dream of me and Jade we were sitting on her balcony cuddling and laughing. I realized that I wanted that, I wanted her.

As far if I am gay I don't know but I know that I am madly In love with her and I want to just hold her forever. 

"Perrie just an hour ago you were crying and storming out of my house"

"I know but I realized that I want you, I want to hold you and kiss you... I want to love you forever"

"y-you love me"

"I hope you feel the same"

"I-I-I do yes yes I love you too"

"Jade Amelia Thirlwall, will you be my girlfriend"

"Yes Yes I will"