The Adventure Of G+J

First Fight And The Heartache

                                   So we've been dating for a while and since I can't even remember what our first fight was about, it was over something stupid and I most likely caused it. We didn't talk for a bit and we both felt so bad. You texted me in my second period class and you could probably feel how angry I was through text. You were trying to fix what ever we fought about but I was still so mad that I didn't care and basically was acting like a huge brat, more then I already am. I didn't want to listen to you and it took you a while for me to finally get out of my little head and see what I was doing. I apologized over and over and we both made up. We didn't see each other till lunch and you gave me a tight hug. Our friend Anthony was with us. He was against us dating at first because he didn't want me to get hurt again because I fell pretty hard my last relationship and he knew everything that had happened. He had told you not to ask me out and got pretty mad when I told him you did the first time. He didn't know about us for a while and when he found out he told you that if you hurt me. He'd hurt you. Anyway back on topic. Our first fight had past and we had a few tiny fights later on. It's now been a month into the relationship and it's your birthday. My mom and I invited you over to my house as well as Anthony. You haven't had some of the best birthdays in a while and I wanted to make this day special for you. We ate pizza, chicken tacos and I made you a small birthday cake. We acted so much like kids but your smile said that you were really happy. You had said that was one of the best birthdays you had in a while. Time went on and we became 3 months and it was a month of just heartache. We fought again and this time it lasted for about a week...but you thought that everything was alright. 

Anthony has sent me screenshots of his and your conversation. With a picture of a famous actress and you saying something inappropriate. I ended up having a bit of an anxiety attack. My chest got so tight, it hurts to breathe and then anger kicked in. I contacted you and was so angry. I was hurt and was sad, it just turned into anger and I started yelling at you through text and you said "what she's hot and she's an actress and older. Nothing could happen between her and I and you know your hot when your mad" Nothing you were saying was helping. I'm a very insecure person and you knew that. All was going through my mind was " your nothing compared to that girl , you fat, have scars, not in the slightest way am I pretty nor hot. You'll never look like that and that's what he think is hot and sexy" We fought for so long and Anthony didn't help one bit. He just laughed at what I did and continued, he made post on facebook of the actress and tagged you in them saying stuff and you'd comment stuff that wouldn't help the case. It continued for a week, brought up every time at lunch by him. I didn't even wanna hang out with you and him if it kept up. I looked down a lot and just started distancing my self. You noticed and tried making me happy again. I didn't work and I faked a smile. I wanted to get you back. So I sent you pictures of Shawn Mendes saying he was cute when I didn't think that at all. I know it wasn't right the thing to do and you got mad. I didn't know what I was doing, I was acting on anger, sadness, hurt. I told you after that I didn't think he was cute anyway, just liked his music. You were mad at me. I would have been too. It took us a while to make up again but afterwards out relationship was stronger then before. Even though we fight and we fight quite often and I caused a lot of them. We always end up coming out stronger then before and moved forward. Our relationship may be crazy and some people would say some things about us but it never changed the way I felt about you.