READ THIS FIRST
Before you read this, please note that this is my true feelings. It's NOT sugar coated. I AM FURIOUS. If you think you will get offended, or get mad at me, or feel the need to give me a long speech...then don't read this.
GO WATCH OPRAH!!!
UNDERSTAND ME, UNDERSTAND THIS
Understanding me you have to understand some other things too.
I have Sero-negative Rheumatoid Arthritis.
Understand me, understand this.
It's an auto-immune disease.
Inflammation in the joints.
No cure.
Permanent.
I had it yesterday, I have it today and I will have it for the rest of my life.
Understand me, understand this.
I have a lot of pain.
Understand me, understand this.
When I wake up in the morning I have pain.
When I go to sleep at knight I have pain.
When I pick up heavy things I have pain.
When I pick up a cup of coffee I have pain.
When I pick up my Bible I have pain.
Understand me, understand this.
I am tired. Fatigue is one of the perks...
Understand me, understand this.
I do struggle to sleep at night.
I do sometimes, very little thou, sleep the whole night,
but I will still be tired the next day.
Even if I have no pain, I am still weary.
Understand me, understand this.
I take pills
Understand me, understand this.
I have to drink pills.
Pills that make you more tired
Pills that make you nauseas
Pills that's spouse to make you feel better.
Pills I just have too take.
Understand me, understand this.
I probably won't take your advice
Understand me, understand this.
I have a medical trained doctor.
They don't know the cure,
I doubt that you will.
If you don't have evidence that the advice work...
Or you yourself wouldn't do it
Then shut-up!
But thanks for trying thou; it shows you want to help.
Understand me, understand this.
I am angry!!! In plain, easy language... I am pissed
Understand me, understand this.
I am not happy with this disease.
I do not want to live like this.
I am only 23.
I am angry!!
I am FURIOUS!!!
Understand me, understand this.
I am a Child of God
Understand me, understand this.
I am a daughter of the Most High
I believe in God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit
I believe that He will heal me,
but it will be done at His time and place
Don't look at me like that.
Understand me, understand this.
I need someone.
Understand me, understand this.
I can't to this alone.
I need someone to talk to.
I need someone to scream at.
I need someone to love.
I need someone to fight with.
I need you...
I can't do this alone...
HIDE AND SEEK
"47, 48, 49, 50!! Ready or not! Here I come!!" William screamed as he flung around curiously looked around. It was 20:43, our favourite time to play.
This was our routine for every Saturday night. Wait till its dark, after that TV show of the cops riding on bicycles catching all the bad guys. Every kid's dream, to be a cop, fight the bad guys and be the hero and all that on a Y-frame, shock enable bicycle. As soon as the credits will start to roll, we rushed outside; everyone was usually at our house. Most of the time someone would just nominate them self to be "on." 50 was the usually number we would count to, while the others hid. As you get to 50 you should first shout, "Kan ek maar kom!?" For those English people that might read this, that sentence is, "May I come now!?" If nobody screams at you, then you may start to look for the rest of us.
I was the only girl in the neighbourhood. It was me and my brother, Renier. The neighbours boys, William, Wessel and Ernest. Then the neighbours from across the street, Shaun and Robin. And the two boys across from them, Gerhard and Riaan. The rules where that you where only allowed to hide in the area close to our house, it was the most centred one. The far you could go was to William's house and on the other side Gerhard's house. My favourite spot was against the wall that splits the two yards of the houses rite in front of us. There was a big bush 60cm from the wall and no light could shine in. It's perfect! You can sit and watch the whole game play out in front of you. The best place to hide, especially if you wear a black shirt. The only tricky part was to make sure that everyone weren't looking in your direction before you start to run, or else when they are on they will come and look for you there at that very same spot. Other wise you can hide there again and again and again.
I wish we could go back to that age...
