Synyster Gates And M. Shadows FanFic.

Chapter 7

Syns Pov (I'm going to start saying Zack instead of Zacky because obviously that is real name. XD)

Matt and I both looked up as Zack and Johnny walked in, with groceries. Johnny looked at us, a devilish smirk growing on his face.  "You got it in didn't you?" Johnny said more as a statement rather than a question. I looked up at Matt smiling brightly, getting lost  beautiful hazel eyes. I still can't believe that Matt likes me, how could someone so beautiful love someone so, disgusting? Matt is seriously my life and soul.

He's my life... literally if I didn't have him I might as well not even exist. He makes me feel like there's still hope, in myself. Before I admitted my feelings to Matt I thought that I was useless and that I was just a waste of space that would never be enough for the love of my life. I'd wake up in the middle of the night crying, thinking that self harm was the only way to deal with my pain. At one point the pain of never being good enough, became too much and I started having suicidal thoughts..Thoughts that I used to wish, would become reality.

Matt is my life, to be completely honest he saved my life as well. I'll never be able to thank him enough,or repay him. I was torn away from my thoughts by Matt shaking my shoulders. "Bri are you ok?" He asked worriedly, his eye brows furrowed together in a way that could only be described as beaitiful. I nodded my head smiling because yes for once in my life I'm alright. "Sorry I.. I just get lost in your eyes." I admitted running my hand through his hair, my lips were only centimeters away from each other due to our position. Really all I want to do is kiss, him until we both aren't able to breathe. I know that sounds like a cheesy pick up line but it's the truth. Beside I don't need a pick up line for someone I already have, well atleast I think he's actually mine.

Matt blushed, finally kissing my lips. He pulled away from the kiss soon after. "I could do the same with your eyes Haner." He smirked, running the pad of his thumb over my cheek. Zack coughed awkwardly, him and Johnny coming to sit on the couch next to us "You know you guys are really cute together." Johnny said like he one-hunderd percent truly meant it. I hope the rest for the world feels that way when we come out. If we do because although I'm sure Matt likes me, I'm not sure if he'd out himself to the world just to be with someone like me.

"Guys.. I hate to be the one to mess up this strangly cute moment but I have to tell you something." Zack said rubbing the back of his neck like he always does when he get scared or nervous. "Yeah what is it?" I asked hesitantly, my palms already get a little clammy.

"We have an interview tomorrow, and before you ask no. No one knows what happened at the last interview the only thing the press know is that Brian passed out after the last interview." Zack said like it literally hurt him to speak those words. Like the words were acid on his tongue. Although that may not sound like it's a bad thing, it is. Now the interviewer will be asking all the same dumb questions like. 'What happened?', 'Are you ok?', 'What made you faint?'.

My could feel my blood started to boil inside of my body. Normally I wouldn't have a problem with interviews, interviews used to be fun but after the last one we had to go to I'm not really fond of them anymore. It makes me feel like everyone is judging me, and that every little thing I do or say is going to be criticized. My thoughts were running crazy and it just became too much. I pushed myself away from Matt limping over to his bunk and sat down.

Yes Matts bunk and not mine. I have a feeling I won't be doing anything in my bunk from now on, and I'm perfectly fine with that because I know what I'm not doing in my bunk I'll be doing in Matts. I'll be doing better things in his bunk. I laid my head in my hands, sighing. I have a gut feeling that tomorrow, isn't going turn out right.

Someone came over, sitting down beside me, wrapping their arms around me. Immediately I recognized the person as Matt, just by how strong his arm was and by his amazing sent. I let my head rest on his shoulder, asking quietly. "What if tomorrow goes horribly wrong and everyone finds out about us? I mean I don't care if people know that you're mine. To be perfectly honest I'd love to walk around in public holding your hand, but I'm worried about the band and you." I stated sadly, going over all scenarios that could happen tomorrow. Let me just say none of the scenarios are good.