Forever Yours - Jamie Campbell Bower lovestory

Pushed - Chapter 18

It feels like there is something pushing me, keeping me under and out of consciousness. The only thing and movement I'm aware of, is someone brushing my hair across my forehead.

I make a fluttering movement with my eyes and someone gasps. Whoever was holding there hand on my forehead grabs my hand and I recognize it instantly.

"Jamie," I murmur, my heart jumping as my head rolls to the side, my eyes still shut. There's so many things I want to say to him. Why is he here? How did he get here if he was working? When did he get here? But I can't say anything other than his name.

"Hey beautiful,"

His hand cups my face and I lean into his palm, sighing.

I drift in and out of consciousness until finally have the strength to open my eyes.

I'm in a new room with two windows instead of one. The walls are stark white, a visitors bed 5m away from mine and around a slight corner and my bed is slightly wider than before, the mattress thicker and more comfortable.

That can only mean one thing. You're staying here for a while.

I look to my right when Jamie has dragged the chair closer to my bed and has fallen asleep against his forearms resting on my bed. I lift my hand and brush his hair lightly with my fingertips. He stirs a bit and lifts his head, his eyes squinting against the light.

"Hey," I smile, "I'm awake now. I won't drift off again," I take his hand and squeeze it.

He stands and kisses my forehead, lingering for a moment. "It's alright. I'd just flown in so I was a bit tired too," He smiles and my heart melts.

"Why didn't you sleep in the bed over there?" I ask, chuckling lightly.

He shrugs, "I don't know. Oh, the nurse came in and said that when you wake up, to call her so she can come in and check on you,"

I nod and press the red button on the control panel lying next to my hand. "Is my eye still swollen?"

He shakes his head slowly, "No, it's a light shade of purple where the cut is and the actual cut is pink, but it's not swollen anymore,"

"I'm sorry, I probably don't look my best at the moment," I chuckle.

"You're still beautiful in my eyes," He smiles, taking my right hand and playing with my fingers, "I have to admit, I was expecting you to look a lot worse. I mean, when I spoke to you, everything was so fresh and all your bruises were black and all of the cuts were still scabs. But you healed or you are healing pretty quickly,"

He chuckles and kisses a bruise on my jaw and props himself on the edge of the bed, just as Kelly walks in.

"Well. I thought you were never going to wake up," She smiles, unhooking the clipboard, "How are you feeling?"

"I can move my head a lot more and my neck so better. Things still hurt, but I can't really feel my back or anything,"

She nods and scribbles something down, "The reason you can't feel your back is because of the medication that was pumped into you after the operation - which was successful on the side note - was to numb it while your skin heals over. So you should start to get feeling back very soon," She smiles, glancing at Jamie and back at me.

"Is that why I can't feel my legs or...?" I stop waiting for her to answer.

"Yes. It's numbed the lower half of your body,"

I nod. Thank god. Not being able to feel your legs is weird. "When can I try to walk?" I ask.

"When you can feel your legs," She says, not looking at me but concentrating on adjusting some fluid or something, "And, just so you know. It's going to be like you're training yourself again. It's not going to be a case of just walking it off, we're going to start with sitting down and the pushing yourself to a standing position and then walking with bars to help you or stabilize you would be a better way to put it. But you'll be back on your feet in no time. Your body knows how to walk, it's just a case of reassuring your muscles that you can,"

In all this time Jamie hasn't taken his eyes off me. Every time I look up at him in the corner of my eye, he has this tiny half smile on his face that makes me want to jump up and wrap my arms around him.