Why cant you love me the same {on hold}

Worst weekend of my life

Jays p.o.v.

Since he had left her house he had asked the same question and had stayed up crying all night.

Was what she said true? Did she really not like the idea of him and her against the world? Why did he listen to her? Why didn't he tell her how he felt for her? Why didn't he say "hey you can stop your search I'm right here"?

yes he had lock himself in his room since 4'o clock yesterday till 7 this morning. His only thought about last night was "did that really happen". He remembered it so clearly and this is how it went.

{flashback of yesterday}

Annie and myself were in her room. Right while she walked out of her closet wearing something she had made herself she said it. She said it so freakin' calm "I don't think we should be friends anymore.",at first I thought I had heard her wrong.

But my mind worked hard to think she didn't say that. Then I found my voice"WHAT!?!?!WHAT!?!?!" I said okay maybe yelled.

The next thing she said it as if she was telling me I had something on my face."I decided that one thing is for sure that no boy has ever talked me because we are always stuck to each others side. They only notice me as that-" I cut her off "as what?" my voice shock.

"As the girl who will never leave your side. I need to stop because I know there is a guy for me and I'm not going to find him being with you all the time. Yes I have fun with you but I want a boyfriend."

Even though I know I would never get my voice under control so here goes nothing" Did u find the guy already? Why now and not before?" before I fell for you he thought.

She shook her telling me no and said "I don't know why now just please leave so we don't suffer."

And being my stupid self that's what I did. I was biting my tongue trying to not say I love you. While I passed her I said "you look nice."

{end of flashback}

Why did I hold my tongue? Why hadn't he just yelled " Your search is over I'm here I'm the one"?

He had told his whole family not to bother him and surprisingly they listened.

Why did I leave her there?What would have happened if he told her? Would he still be up crying all night? Or would he be in bed with her staying up all night telling her how much he loved her? Would she have laughed in his face?

He stayed locked in his room all weekend thinking the same stupid questions.