All For Love - A collection of Poems

infatuation

i am just lost
those words weave me in
fantasies cloud my head
nothing matters, though

YOU will never care
the way i will
it'll all be
over soon
and you
won't even realize
won't even know
how this
hurts
me

i want you
so bad
so bad that
it tears me apart
so desperately wanting
wanting to be
held
by
you

that's all i need
i want to
hear you
speak
lying next to
me
all the things in
your head
all those
embarrassing memories
your
darkest secrets
your
deepest fears

and more.

i need you
right here
next to me
wanderlust
sparkling your eyes
curiously
looking into mine
holding me
right there
with your gaze
that speak
so damn much
that
it broke me
over
and over again
majestically
ruining me

and everything else
just
fading away
washed off
in the hues
of your laughter
and the vibrance
that was you
would be the
only thing
i could see

but of course
that ain't ever
gonna be
coz you need
validation
you
need better
deserve better
can't see you
ruining yourself
for me
you have better things
to do
and i
i had to lie
lying to
keep you safer
lying
coz i could never
face the
truth
didn't want you
to hurt
i'm tryna
play this safe
killing a bit
of myself
once more
just to keep you
happier
than you'd
ever be
with me.

And I laughed out loud, hon.

Coz I know for a fact that we'd be a disaster if we ever happened.

A beautiful disaster.

But one that'd break you.

And I can't ever afford that.

Never.