I Only Meant To Do This To Myself

11 - Sambuka

11 - Sambuka

Pierce The Veil - Sambuka

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Luke and I had tattooed two things on ourselves, I had an X on my inner right ankle and he had an O in the same spot, and then on the left side of our inner left wrists, we had an astrological sign; mine was Pluto and his was Mercury.

"These are fucking great, they're tiny, but they're great." Luke smiled and we continued to clean, moisturise and cover the stick and poke's up. "I'm tired though, so I'm gonna sleep." I sigh, soon to be followed by a yawn.
"Yeah, me too." Luke mumbled and he joined me in my bed and soon we were knocked out.

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| 12:34 the next day |

"Wake uuuuuuuuuuuuup!" Jaime whined whilst poking my face. I groaned, opened my eyes and adjusted to the light and then flicked Luke to wake him up too.
"What time is it?" I ask Hime.
"12:34."
"Fuuuuuuck," I groan once again. "Yep, and we're going home todaaay!" He cheers and then leaves the bunk area, still cheering.
I chuckle and drag Luke and I out of bed.
Walking into the living room, I saw Tony looking at my ankle in confusion. "When did you get a tattoo?" He asked, "oh, I did stick and pokes last night because I got bored, there's also the astrological sign for Pluto on my wrist," I say, pulling my sleeve down enough to show the small tattoo but not my cuts. "Why Pluto?" I heard Mike ask, "it's my favourite planet. And yes, it is a planet." I say before anyone else can say anything. "But it's too small to be one?" Vic questions. "Well, people with dwarfism are still people are they not? So surely dwarf planets are still planets," I reply and raise an eyebrow, to that Vic opens his mouth and then closes it in defeat. I smirk and then get up to go get showered and changed.

*TW*

Looking at myself now... I have gained a lot. I don't like this one bit, it disgusts me.
Purge. Purge it all out.

I play lay music loud and turn the shower on and then empty the barely there abundance of food in my stomach. Grimacing, I wipe my face and the toilet and get into the shower.

Cut. Cut. Cut.

All on my thighs, wrist and hip. Why do I do this to myself?

*TW OVER*

I'm stood at my bunk, packing my stuff up. There wasn't much left now, just basic things like chargers and such, but they could go into my backpack last as I'll need them. Mike helped me carry my stuff out to the minivan that would take us to the airport. Seeing as Luke's car was still here (we had it brought with us) he would be driving home, it wasn't too far for him, which was a perk.
"I'm gonna miss you," Luke whispers whilst pulling me into a hug, it pressed my cuts but I didn't care. "I'm already missing you," I choke out. "To quickly get the sappy stuff over, make sure you take care of yourself okay? That means get up to three full meals a day, maybe even some snacks in between meals too, try to stop self harming for me and get your noggin," he paused to poke my forehead, "to be a good one, okay?" He smiled and pulled me in tighter, I nodded and told him to take care of himself too. And with that, Luke kissed my forehead and I heard him tell the boys to keep an eye on me and then he was off.
I sighed and got into the minivan. I got many sympathetic looks from the guys but I just smiled back and said I'll survive.
"I'm just gonna take a quick look around the bus too check if we've forgotten anything." Mike announces and hops out of the van.
"Oh! I left a monster in the fridge, can you get it for me pleaaaase?" I whine and make nods, everyone else says that they have everything.