The Journal

today was what you would call a very bad day then it wasnt then it was.

December 30 2016

Today I woke up. I thought that was quite the accomplishment.

I stepped on the weight scale as I do every week or whenever I feel fat and need proof of whether I'm delusional or not. I gained a bit. Not too much.

I called nate as I usually do and we spoke. I got way to deep into my emo thoughts once again. My bad nate. We were discussing the depressing topic of how he would react to me catching a deathly sickness. He doesn't like this. Neither do I but my curiosity gets the best of me. He got hungry afterwards. I wouldn't let him leave for breakfast due my being needy for love and all of his attention. Sorry food :(

I got hungry too. I set him free like the lady bugs I threw my out window when they infested my room last year.

I got out of bed. The floor was cold on my Bare feet. My parents tell me I'll catch a cold this way. I refuse to sleep with socks on. Dreadful habit of mine. I walked along the hardwood and onto the tile of the kitchen. I had gotten vegetables at the store last night. I forgot to write that. I frosted broccoli and threw them in a plate with some carrots, popcorn chicken, and a side of Alfredo sauce to dip the veggies in. I made it I back to my room and decided to watch some Korean dramas. I wasn't in the mood to start a new show. I rewatched one of my favorites. "You're beautiful " add me to the list of unnoticed jang geun suk fans. I finished two episodes before nate called me back. I continued to watch the smexyness of J. G. S. As we talked. My dad came home for lunch. He was upset. He assumed I would think to feed my siblings. He expected too much. I had to end my call for a scolding followed by me cleaning the kitchen. Sad face.

Nate video called me. His shirt was off. The redness behind my pale Mexican face was real. I got ready for work. I'm 16. Stuck at 7.25 an hour serving ice cream to many different types of people.
Nate said I made my khaki pants and turquoise tshirt look sexy. He can be a horndog at times. I don't disapprove. I got dropped off by my older sister. People say we look alike. I disagree. I'm way better looking. I stopped by a store to return some shoes. I was running late but I still decided to hold the door open for an old lady. I came in to work and it was already busy. After the wave of people cleared I began cutting strawberries in the back. terandis, my coworker. Told me about how the restaurant next door had closed down. I was upset. I continued to rant about how upset I was over next hour and a half. I miss my sandwich.

She bought me something that was made with the same ingredients from different food place it was not the same in any way shape or form. it I got busy then slow down and I was reading the manga I started earlier that week. It was disappointing me like many other things today I decided to stop reading before I had a heart attack from the amount of distress it brought me. I checked my phone for the address of the person I was buying a desk from when they wrote back me that they were selling it to someone else even though I asked for it in advance. perfect. Just My Luck. I was cleaning up getting ready to close down the store. I had set the alarm and I was making my way out just to realize that I left my paycheck on the counter once I got into my dad's car. I texted my boss to save it for me until tomorrow. my dad asked me when I worked. I told him 3. he said I could work this weekend. I had forgotten was New Year's. it wasn't like we did anything besides eat grapes at 12 watch my uncle's get drunk anyways so I don't see why he was so upset. my bad.