The day I said "I love you"

Chapter 1

It's been like that every since then. He would always stand up for me and I would always thank him. He was the one and only person who's warm voice was the most comforting thing I had. Everything in my life revolved around him.

But now I had an even bigger challenge ahead of me. I was going to have to tell him how I really felt about him. How everything he did affected my life. How, now matter what happened, I would always cherish him in my heart forever. He was the one and only other half of me. He was the strength I have and without him.......I.........I would crumble into pieces.

Well now I'm 16 and my mother has always wanted me to ask him to be my boyfriend but I thought that it would be wierd. That was though...... before I fell in love with him and before I realized that he was everything i had.

Just when I thought that I could do it all my senses started to bail on me. My knees were shaking, i was sweating rapidly and i couldn't control my stutter.

"Hey Anna!" luke had said shouting from accross the hallway. "Hey wait up!"

"Oh, hey Luke." i said confidently. "Whats up?" i asked.

"Not much, you?" he replyed trying deligently to catch his breath.

"Not much either." i said lying through my teeth.

"Well i have something to tell you. Something really huge and important." he said.

"Oh great me too!" i said not sure if i could do it. "Um you first. yours seems a lot more exciting than mine does." i said. I could feel a blush rising to my cheeks, which quite frankly, scared me because i wasn't one known to bush easily.

"Okay well my-" he had started to say getting cutt of by the first bell indicating that we had to go to class or else we would be considered 'tarty'.

"You know what," he said "I have got to get to class so could i tell you on the bus?" he asked innocently. NO! The voice inside my head was taunting me so much telling him to ditch class so he could tell me but instead i just answered with a simple yes. "Umm ya i guess so." i said defeated. We both walked in silence to then end of the hallways saying our goodbyes for the rest of the school day and then going our seperate direactions.

My thoughts were anxiously taunting me all throughout my first four classes until the lunch bell rang. I couldnt help but wonder what it was that he wanted to tell me so badly. I felt haunted as if i just had to know what he was going to say or else the endless waiting was going to kill me. Right as i started to walk out the door to the lunch room my scocial studies teacher grabbed my forearm jerking me back a little bit taking my breath away in shock. Who does he think he is pulling on my arm like that? "Hey anna?" he began to say letting go of my arm. I looked down at it. There was a large red ring that circled the outskirts of my arm making me go numb.

"Yes Mr.Black?" i replyed in a condescending tone trying not to be abrupt about my arm.

"If its not too much to ask, do you think you could stay here for lunch and help me out with a few things around here?" Really? The voice in my hed was sg]houting out with pain now. but i couldnt say no. "Um sure no problem." i said. "Really? thats great!" he said with excitement. "Lets get to work. The rest of my evening was just about as bad as that. I even got paid to do some random losers' homework for him. But by the end of the day it was all worth it.

"Hey stranger!" Luke said running up to me after school by the bus lot. "hey Mr. Shout-a-lot.." I said in a sarcastic like tone that dropped his energy a bit. "Sorry." he said apologetically. "no you're fine. So whats up?" I asked anxiously. "oh nothing really I just wanted to tell you my awesome news that I was supposed to tell you this morning." he answered implying an enthusiastic tone in the phrase 'this morning'. "Oh it's fine really." I said once again lying through my teeth.

It was then that I finally added up to being a horrible person. I don't know how I was so possibly easy to read but when I finished putting away the hurtfuly doubting thoughts about me Luke said: "Hey don't beat yourself up about whatever it is that you are thinking about right now." " okay fine." I said locking away my thoughts for the afternoon. The rest of the afternoon drAgged on dryly considering that Luke wouldn't tell me what ever it was that was on his mind. The curiosity was seriously chomping a whole in my stomache when he finally said: "Okay back to what I was telling you about this afternoon....." he said before overcoming the humorous look that was on his face with a serious and astonished one.

"Oh my gosh! Dad!" he said choking out the words before letting out a small chuckle and running up to his father. "I thought you were stationed in Hawaii." Luke managed to say without letting his grip on his father go. I couldn't help but notice a small wet tear escape it way from Luke's eye falling down his cheek. That's when I truly felt horrible. Because just the day before we had gotten into a small argument about how I thought that my life was completely unfair because I always had to take the fall for my older brother when he got caught for making meatless love to some rich sassy girl who was going to be dumped after he thought that their sherade moment of no good sex went plain.

But then I realized that I had something he didn't....... I had a father right by my side everyday. He may not be the best dad in the world but he is still my dad.