Abused mate

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"Don't ever let people try and touch your heart because if you do it might break. People say follow your heart, but what if your heart is broke in a thousand pieces? what part do you follow, which way do you go?"

                                                                        -UNKNOWN

A/N

My first book one this account I really hope that the people reading this, is pleased with what they're reading. It not all edited yet, so bare with me. I love writing so please don't judge......please vote!!

-A (Warning, self harm in this chapter. Read at your own risk.)

My family isn't the best you could definitely say that.

Since I was ten years old I have lived with my aunt, uncle, and my brother. I wasn't really close to my brother. My mother is what held the family together and when she died ever thing fell apart. This family won't ever be the same.

My dad was the best alpha around, everybody loved him. He was merciful to the worst of criminals around, but he worked way to much. he forget about his family, his marriage, but never did he forget about his pack. Our pack was huge, strong, wealthy, but apparently it wasn't strong enough for the rogues.

The rogues hated my father, for all the people he had mercy on he killed the father of person named Andrew, which is the leader of the biggest rogues group.

Till that day forward I hated the rogues, they ruined my life. they thought they could kill my father. the last breath of my father was used to say this to me "Rule over the rogues. You will find your destiny and prove to everyone that did us wrong, that you are the powerful. Princess, you be the next great Luna that goes down In history. You are the light in all of this darkness".

Till this day I still don't know what that means. I don't have a destiny, and I am not able to be a Luna. I feel like I betrayed my father, my pack, and family. I let my father use his last breathe for nothing. I mean I'm not a light, but he was right about one thing there is a lot of darkness in this world.

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"Aniya Gray, come down here right know" I hear my unbearable aunt yell.

I didn't answer, but listened and walked down stair slowly not knowing what she wanted.

I have been nothing but nice to this woman but what I get is only meanness from her. She is a lady to be afraid of. Last time I disobeyed her and my uncle, she made me eat off of the floor and eat only scraps, and other things I don't like to talk about.

"Aniya" she yelled again not seeing me right behind her.

"Yeah" I uttered out.

"What did you just say to me".

"Uh...umm, I mean yes" I struggled to get out.

"Learn your manners, it's yes ma'am to you" she said rolling her eyes.

"Yes ma'am" I whispered, I just stand there fiddling with my fingers.

"Hey, aunt Danyae" My brother comes in the door from school saying, giving her a kiss.

My brother, Daniel, loves my aunt Danyae. Alway have, she doesn't hurt him. Danyae has rubbed off on him, since about two weeks ago he has physically been hurting me too. My own brother, you don't know what that feels like.

You are ugly.

You are disgusting, no one would love you. that's why your own family hurts you!!

Slut.

Your worthless.

I got thrown out of my own thought when I fall to the floor by force.

All the pain came from me right cheek.

He kneels down beside me taking my face in his rough hands and while saying "Worthless piece of shit, baby girl listen to those pretty little demons inside you head and kill herself" with that, my own brother leaves me on the floor.

Not one single tear comes out of my blue eyes, because I'm used to being slapped, punched, thrown to the ground, and insulted by friends, and family. It hurts a little less every day, one day it won't hurt at all because I'll be numb in the clouds.

Everybody that I know, thinks they are better than me because I'm 16 and haven't shifted yet. Yea it's not really normal for a Alpha's daughter to shift late, but I mean I can't help it.

A mate is what everybody can't wait for, but what if I tell you that I don't want one. I don't deserve a mate. If I had one he would probable beat me worse than I am right know.

I never met anyone that was nice and loving to me except my mom, dad, Clairity which is my best friend. She has always been their for me. Telling me that all the things I hear is true.
People try and play you, well I had enough of people play me, and hurt me...... my family is the worst. But one person that wouldn't ever try and play me is my best friend, Clairity, she is the only person that keeps me here ALIVE.

"Go to your room, I don't want to see your face right know" my aunt says to me before she goes to start dinner.

Go and do it.

You deserved it.

Go on.

I get off of the dirty floor and run to me room into my bathroom.

I sat my bathtub and rip the bandage of my right arm, showing me what I have done in the last month.

I brought the blade to my arm and dug it across my little red colored area.

"Deeper" they yell at me.

Which make me scared so I do what they say.

Blood is dropping everywhere. I keep slicing my skin as if I wasn't in control.

I finically drop the blade and reach my phone. I go to open my contacts and click the only person that won't judge me, I call Clairity.

It kept ringing for like 5 seconds before she answers and says "hey, babe what's up".

"Clairity I'm sorry I did it again. I couldn't help it, and when I started I couldn't stop. Please help me!! I need you to come and help me" I say with tears rolling off me cheek.

"Okay okay I'll be there in a minute" she says and hangs up in a rush.

"You did good today"

"Bye for today" they say.

I kicup and say "Bye".

Sorry if that sucked if you keep on reading it gets better.
Bye munchkins!!~~~
          -A