You laugh at all my inner strength,
And make it run away,
What little of it I have left,
Hides itself away.
You tear me down with your words,
"I was jokeing" you will say,
But behind my back you say you're not,
Yes. I can actually hear you.
I hide myself away from you,
Try to block out all the pain,
But i'll never truley block it out,
No matter how hard I try.
You've told me these things for so long,
I actually belive them, and i'm ashamed,
You make me hate myself On the inside and out,
But I can never return your hate.
When you beg for my forgiveness,
I will simply say,
"You did this to me all these years,
And filled me full with hate"