Various Songfics

Goner-Hetalia(Prussia)

This was requested by whatthesepticeye and I am SO incredibly sorry for the long wait.

I hope you guys enjoy it!

TRIGGER WARNING! And really important A/N at the end.

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I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I want to be known by you,
I want to be known by you.

I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I want to be known by you,
I want to be known by you.
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Gilbert looked up at the sky and felt a raindrop on his cheek. It's been a year since they- Gilbert let that thought fade before it finished. He couldn't bear to face the memory of how he failed the person he loved. He can still remember how they looked: their (S/C), their bright (E/C), and how they smiled at every stupid joke he said. He can remember that horrible day, and the events that led up to the infamous moment as if they happened yesterday.

One year ago...

(Y/N) and Gilbert were laughing at how Feliciano and Ludwig were "trying" to sneak up on Alfred and the other members of the Allies,and ultimately failed when Ivan appeared behind them and scared Feliciano so bad that he ran off before anyone could say tortellini.(Y/N) suddenly became silent and started to tug at the sleeves of their (F/C) jacket.

"What's up (N/N)?" Gilbert asked worried. "N-Nothing you need to worry about Gil. Its nothing." (Y/N) said with a small smile.

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Though I'm weak and beaten down,
I'll slip away into this sound,
The ghost of you is close to me,
I'm inside-out, you're underneath.

I've got two faces, blurry's the one I'm not,
I've got two faces, blurry's the one I'm not,
I need your help to take him out,
I need your help to take him out.
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"You don't need to lie to me. Now tell me what's bothering you." (Y/N) sighed. "Have you ever felt like nobody would hear you if you were screaming in your mind? Or even felt like nobody was there,even though you had friends?" Gilbert was shocked by their questions. "No. Why,do you feel like that?" He asked, even more worried than before. "No, just forget I said anything."

"Why are you lying to me again? You do feel like that don't you?" "Gil I said forget it! It was a stupid question!" "Fine. I'll drop it." Gilbert said angrily. An awkward tension grew between the two friends.

(Y/N) POV

I want to tell him about these thoughts, and even how I feel, but I know that he won't return my feelings, and that we'll grow apart if I did. Maybe if I disappeared for good, he can find someone who isn't damaged like me...It's decided then. I'll disappear tomorrow, and let Gilbert go from the burden that is me.

Normal POV

"I'll see you tomorrow." "Maybe..." (Y/N) whispered to themself.

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Though I'm weak and beaten down,
I'll slip away into this sound,
The ghost of you is close to me,
I'm inside-out, you're underneath.

Though I'm weak and beaten down,
I'll slip away into this sound,
The ghost of you is close to me,
I'm inside-out, you're underneath.
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Gilbert POV from now on

I was really worried about (Y/N). Yesterday we had a small fight,and they didn't seem like themself,and they didn't answer any of my texts.

I went to their place to check up on them,and their front door was unlocked-which was not like them at all.

"(Y/N),are you there?" I called out,but no one responded. My stomach felt queasy.

I went to their room and knocked on their door. "(Y/N),please answer me!" I shouted worriedly.

I pushed open the door and what I saw made me nauseous. (Y/N) was hanging from a noose in the center of the room,with a note beneath them.
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Don't let me be gone.
Don't let me be gone.
Don't let me be gone.
Don't let me be gone.

Don't let me be.
Don't let me be.
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Dear Gilbert,
If your reading this,that means I went through with it. I've been planning this for a while,so please don't blame yourself. I was so afraid of asking for help,and even telling you everything-from these dark thoughts to my crush on you-that I just kept everything inside. I love you Gilbert Beilschimdt,more than words can say,and please-for my last wish,keep living,don't let anyone put down the Awesome Prussia.

Til we meet again, (Y/N)

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(Ah, yeah)

I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I'm a goner, somebody catch my breath,
I want to be known by you,
I want to be known by you.
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I am so sorry for the unexpected hiatus. Between college,sudden family problems,and an even more sudden move to a new state,I've been more stressed than I've ever been in my life!

But,I am back,and with news.

If anyone you know isn't acting like themselves,ask if there is anything you can do to help. Because they're probably hiding dark thoughts themselves,or even you awesome guys.

I've been where I wrote,and I still am. So if anyone needs to talk, I'm here, other people want to help.

But to more exciting news, I will be opening requests for 48 hours from right now. So on Friday, September 21,2018 at 11:12 pm EST,requests will be closed again until I finish the ones I'll get at the moment.

I love you guys so much and thank you for being so patient!

Hasta la pasta,cronagrell~