What's my new years resolution for this year? If theres someone out there who wants to know?then here it is...first i wanna change the old me...i mean the old negative me..because this time i wanna start over..and this time i wanna make it right...if i say i wanna change the negative me it means..i wanna let go of all the negative thoughts i had in my head from the past years..including the negative and toxic people i had interactive with..but it doesn't mean to be dramatic and letting them to hate me..i wanna learn to distance myself from them in a nice and smooth way...the second is..i wanna forgive myself from all the mistakes i did before..for the me to love myself more...and giving myself a chance to find love and happiness...third is not for myself but for the i one loved...for him..i want him to be happiest person i could ever meet..i want to give him my infinite love without any doubts and boundaries..without selfishness and conditions..i want him to be with his true self...because loving him is the only thing i could ever give..if my love for him was not healthy and fulfilling anymore...then i dont want him to give my love back..if loving me back only makes him selfish and feel bad about himself..so please dont love me back..if loving me in return only makes him a bad person so please dont love me back anymore...i want him to be happy because thats the only thing that makes myself happy..seeing him quite and peaceful and fullfill makes me happy beyond any happiness i could ever had..the last one is for my family..they're the only treasure i have in my life..they're my strength and life...they're the only reason i fight hard enough..i always pray that God will give me enough time to spend my life with them to show them how much i really do loved them...i wish i could have everything to give them all what they want in life..i wish i could be healthy and strong enough so i could take care of them for the rest of my life....in Gods will....thank you 2016 for all the memories...ill take it as lessons so it makes me more stronger to fight for another year ahead...
