Her story

Her Life in lines



Hold on a second before we jump into the whole drama, where you find things emotional be like bla bla bla that's me always when i hear for example ' I love you ' me : ' Sure can you die from carbon dioxide ? I would love to meet a alian ! ' so let's come back to the whole point of this chapter .

Starting the college seems already a long nightmare they say is part of becoming mature . But why ? I would rather learn how to swim as a fish ! But enough of humor let's go back to serious things. First day of college my hair looked like a potato. This was about to be a really challeging part of her life. Looking around she haven't seen her old and best friend Emily . But she knew oxygen was there sure she couldn't die. Only a couple of hours and then home :).  Starting the school everybody seems to looks so weird at her ( as i said i looked as a potato 😌 )  and to dislike her some of them made fun of the way her skin ton coulour is , her teeth , her voice and her personality. They dislike Ola because she weren't one of them ( because all of them seemed as white as the snow is, sure they been eating some paint heah food is too expesive for this rats)  she was different and full of energy ( sure the sun light was the problem )n but this energy faded away when she started the college. They always made her feel so worthless that she ain't worth even to breath and up on her head been always suicidal thoughs. She start cutting her own body being sick of people making fun of her she felt like nothing really matter there was the end of the road .



she was pretty good at making poems .. One of them was starting like



' I want to die i can't hold it anymore
Is hard do deal with pain on your own
When everybody laughs you're feeling alone
And you wish that everything was done '



She thought she really desserves what she was going thought she's good enough but nobody was listening her whenever she cried out for help , nobody understood how less she felt and how hard her life seemed from her side. Nobody cared not even when her whole body was bleeding .



She had a couple of friends but nobody really tried to understand her and her point of view. They all were a reason why her life wasn't worth living no longer i could write another night the reasons why but is enough for now we will discuss about this later on when is going to be the right time. She tried a couple of therapists to help her out getting over this hell . Hell had no escape . Am i wrong ? But it was uselesd none of them helped maybe it made it even worse. Her demons were in her head pushing her to the point where only her life taken away was the only way to clean her sins away . She was never going out and whenever she heared a sound she was hiding away ( i don't know why was she doing this but...) her family never knew that she could be that down .. My question is 'DID THEY EVER CARED THAT SHE WAS DYING ON HER OWN? '



nobody really knew about what she was going through . Is easier to wipe your tears off and to smile instead of explaining a million times why .  Her years in school seemed like hell for her. Begging of the 3rd year started good she got to meet one guy that becomed slowly her best friend. His name was Leo. He was 16 and he was from slovakia . They start getting closer and talking si often . They were coming home together kinda every day she used to tell him what she feels and how her day was progressing step by step he made her stop her depression acctions and he seemed like a angel ( not lying he still is a little angel ) , he never knew that for her ,he was the only safe place where she could high , a roof where rain couldn't touch her, after they've been friends for a couple of months she stopped harming her self something that she haven't done before for anyone and she enjoyed the life from his eyes.. He was a drug for her... And she was addicted to it. She start having feelings for him but she was scared to tell him  because she knew he might not like it and she'll lose her light from life . He was really smart and mature and so funny.  But eveything  change after Naomy , Ola's friend comed between them and make them go into a relationship they weren't ready for. She was jealous and made Ola leaving Leo... She broked his heart.



blamed her self every day and their time spend together didn't healed her it was getting worse and worse. Leo had a best friend called Jeremy witch was telling Ola that she never matter for Leo and that he never cared for her. Her heart was falling down on the ground and she wished her whole room was full of her own blood taking her life away was way easier . Friday Leo with his family start moving ( forget to mention they been neighbours ) Ola was watching him living her world falled apart she wanted to scream but her screming wasn't enough to cover  up and to take out the whole pain she felt.. She had no hope no wish no promise.  She felt like giving up will help.. She cut her self she cried her face off to sleep making poems and writing stories about something that could of had been. His smile was enough to make her heart beating But it was more painfull because no longer he belowed to her. She was lonely because of Naomy getting involved and Jeremy. She wanted Leo back but none of them two been there for the lonely girl. Step by step she realised that she was too young to understood the true meaning of the the words cluel world and cold hearts .Maybe he never cared for her maybe he never loved her... The story just start .... What's gonna happen?