Ianto Jones

Ianto Jones, where do I begin?

From the moment I saw you and saved you, I knew that someday you would be mine. You were always the one Ianto Jones. I've kept my promise; I will never ever forget you. Really who could? No matter how many deaths, I'll never forget. You were the best teaboy anyone could ask for, you were so sweet, smart and very cute!

I hate that you're not here next to me. Every time I die or go to sleep, I wake up to a world where Ianto Jones no longer exists. You were one in a million Ianto Jones; no-one can even be compared to you.I never stop thinking about you, and that's one thing that'll never in a million years change. I wish I could bring you back here; I've been so lonely without you. With the hub gone and all, I feel like I have nothing left to live for. But I keep going every day, I have no work to look forward too, Torchwood 3 no longer exists, no Ianto Jones. I try to move on, but I can't I just can't, you were the only one. I seriously don't know how I'm dealing with living without you, Yan.

Sometimes I used to think that immortality was a curse, a curse so I suffer. But immortality meant way more than that when I met you because I knew I would always come back to you. I loved it when you were there when I came too after getting killed. You comforted me in an instant, you always understood what I went through. You even knew when they killed me, when they put that bomb inside me. I hate my life now because you're not in it,I wish I could end my life forever and be with you forever. But no,I can't end my empty,lonely life. You died way before your time and I'm truly sorry about that.

I miss all those moments and kisses we had. They were the best moments; I've ever had in my lifetime. I'm really sorry I couldn't save you, trust me I tried. I wanted you back. Oh and yeah we were a couple. I just didn't like to admit it, even to you. I never liked the word, well before I met you that is! You changed me, and I changed you. You were the best thing that happened to me. I wish I could make more memories with you.

The pain I go through everyday because you're not with me, kills me and makes me remember when I held you while as you slowly died, in my arms. It seems like an eternity ago I met you, beating up a weevil. Yes I looked you up because I was curious and you were cute! Who can blame me?

Every day I visit you at the cemetery. I wish I could speak to you again for the last time. The house of the dead wasn't enough for me; I need to give you a proper goodbye. You at least deserve that for what you've been through.

I love you Ianto Jones. You will never be just a blimp in time for me; I'll never ever forget you, I promise. I miss you, a lot. I cry about you every day, yes every day, that's how much I miss you. No-one has forgotten you, Mica misses you a lot. She has even started to call me 'Uncle Jack' now. I tell her how brave you were and she wants to be just like you. She adores you Yan.

Even though your gone, I know you're with me where ever I go. I know that you're there, but I can't see you and that makes me really sad. You don't know how much I miss you, I miss you much more than words can explain. That's how much I miss you Ianto. I wish there was someway to see you again,I'd do anything to get you back and I mean anything. I would kill myself if I was mortal to get you back. I wish you could give me some type of sign to say that your okay.

I've loved many people in my life, but I haven't loved them as much as I love you. I still love you as much as I loved you before.

I don't know how many times I've said this but Ianto Jones, I love you. I will love you forever and always. No matter how many lifetimes pass, I will not stop loving you. My teaboy, My Ianto Jones.