Tears rolled down my cheeks and onto the messy handwriting of Augustus Waters. I felt my stomach. My baby was in there. That was about the hundredth time I had read the letter and every time it hurt so much knowing he would never know his child and my child would never their father. I told my parents yesterday, but I didn't think they'd got over the shock yet. I could have had an abortion, but as I had told Gus, I didn't want to be responsible for the ending of anymore lives.
I had been all clear from cancer for two weeks, and Augustus would never know.
3 months later...
I lay on my back at the pregnancy clinic as cold jelly was squirted onto my belly. An image flickered on the screen to my right. The woman asked if I wanted to know the gender.
"Um...Okay." I replied.
"It's a...girl, congratulations!" My parents beamed and hugged at each other while I just stared at the screen, at my little miracle. My little piece of Augustus Waters.
Waiting for me when I arrived home was Isaac, who grinned as he heard me come up the path.
"So is it a boy or girl in there?" I told him and his grin seemed to grow. I guided him up to my room where I asked him:
"Isaac, how do you fancy being my daughter's godfather?I'm sure it's what Augustus would have wanted." I said.
"I thought you would never ask" He replied. We chatted for a while but Isaac soon had to go, leaving me on my own to think.
The next day was my PET scan, I had been told by countless doctors that the scan would not affect my little girl. But I couldn't help but worry.
Morning came too fast and soon enough I found myself sleep deprived but going to the hospital all the same. The previous night had been especially bad.I couldn't get to sleep, every position I tried just seemed uncomfortable and I kept feeling light pains - not exactly sore, just... uncomfortable.
I drove round to Isaac's to pick him up, I have started bringing him to my scans instead of my parents, they just worry and fuss.
Soon enough I found myself under the PET scanner.
"All done, you can get up now." My doctor called through the speaker. I knew something was wrong as soon as I walked through the door.
"I'm so sorry." I glanced over to the monitor where my results were. A small white light flickered. But it wasn't on me. It was on our daughter.
