I scream and shout yet no one can hear me..... I cry yet no one cares..... I try helping and I get pushed away..... why doesn't anything I do go the way I wish it would happen? Why is the world against me? Why is my best friend tired of me? What did I ever do to make my life this way? I lied, I cried,I yelled, I screamed...... and yet no one gave a fuck. Why am I here if no one wants me here? All these question run through my head every day but I can never find myself an answer. Is it because I'm dumb, or mental, or even special? I don't know and I never want to know.... I used to have lots of friends when I was younger but as the years went by I found myself with less and less friends.... so I either stay the way I am until I have no friends or I shut all my friends out so that it will cause me less pain... I won't have to see them leave me behind.... I won't have to suffer like I have many times before... or hear all the lies their telling people behind my back..... sometimes I just want to cry and that's okay but is it okay to cry to the point where you feel like no one cares about you anymore? I don't know how longer I can take it before I completely break down....all I am is a girl with her suffering soul...
- sufferingsoul225
