I feel...inferior
Inferior because I'm nothing like cis guys
Inferior because I'm not "normal"
Inferior because people believe I deserve to die because of who I am
Inferior because I've been told my feelings aren't valid
Inferior because I can't just be myself around my family because it will "confuse" their kids
Inferior because I'm told I need to act like a boy
Inferior because I feel I'm not enough for my girlfriend because I'm not "manly" enough
I try so hard
Believe me, I do
But it is so HARD to be
Confident
Comfortable
Happy in my own skin
Because everyday there's something negative that goes through my head
That maybe everyone's right
Maybe I'm too much
Maybe I should just go back in the closet
Maybe I should just quit
Maybe I should be "normal"
I feel inferior because people believe they have a say in my life
I feel inferior because no matter what I do, I won't be happy with myself until my past
My birth name
My biological gender
My body
Is no longer associated with me
Is forgotten
But maybe I'm just "being a girl" and being "too emotional"
