The Real Deal

Prologue

What would you feel like if your boyfriend didn't text you while you were away on vacation? And when he was away on vacation, you made effort to text him and communicate with him.. Hmm that's not just it, there's also the fact that he missed our monthsary. Freaking fantabulous, isn't it? I realized that I'm tired. I'm tired of wasting my teenage years on a guy who can't even text me while I'm away, making effort when he's not, and wasting my teenage years on a guy who probably won't end up as my husband or a person I would probably forget 5 years from now. Okay, don't tell me that it's cause I don't love him whatsoever. I do, I really do. It's just that after realizing that I have so much things I can do when I'm not wasting time for him and the fact that I know that I'm only saving myself from a first love's heartbreak, I began second thinking my thoughts on our relationship. What ifs suddenly flooded my head. Such whats ifs are for example, what if he doesn't really love me, what if I love him too much then I'll only get heartbroken in the end, what if I'm not ready? You know, those doubtful questions that make you really think and think so as to just set aside your problem and just get it over with? Yeah, that.

So here I am, thinking about ways how to tell him that I'm breaking up with him..

My name is Cameel Ann Harvard and this is my story.