Depression sucks is all i have to say. Right now i don't feel like i belong anywhere. Some of my friends will argue with me. There is only one place I truly feel like I belong, that is with my friends. I have so many mixed emotions i don't know how to deal with them. I truly belong with my friends and my sweet, loving, caring girlfriend, Taylor Rouse. For the past few years before I met her i was constantly sad and confused. I had had two girlfriends before i was able to understand how much they hurt me. Taylor and I have been officially started dating on January 13, 2014. We have been together for only two days counting today but i feel like a renewed person. I am not always sad and lonely. The one time I felt lonely was when my cousin and I did things I regret doing with him. So far it has happened twice and I feel so confused. He thinks he can do this thing with me and then he will ignore me for who knows how long then one day he thinks he can talk to me like everything is ok when in reality it is no where near ok. Now that I have Taylor it will be a time of transformation, I hope. I'm always mad at myself for my past but there is nothing I really can do to change things. when I asked her out I was expecting a no because there is a guy she is "soul mates" with and this guy and I are basically fighting for her. When when she said yes I was happy and relieved but also shocked.
THIS IS MY TRANSFORMATION
