Matt534 just entered _lou_'s private Chat
Matt534: Louise?
Matt534: You there?
Matt534: Or you still working today? I bet your phone's vibrating so i'll keep spaming ^^ your poor butt ;)
Matt534: yea exactly this is why i spam you i wanna annoy you honey
Matt534: you gonna read that anyway
Matt534: so i'll just start talking about my wonderful school day so just answer when your finally home lou <3
Matt534: annie was annoying today again she just never leaves me alone in school
Matt534: i wish you went in my school
Matt534: or i went in yours cuz yours sound way more fun than mine
Matt534: i could basically hang out w/ you every free minute
Matt534: and no dave
Matt534: and no annie
Matt534: and YOU
Matt534: i miss you
Matt534: come online!!!!
Matt534: its 6:29 pm you should have been home for at least ten minutes lou whats up
Matt534: louise?
Matt534 is typing...
_lou_ just entered _lou_'s private Chat and joined Matt534
Matt534: LOUUU *-*
_lou_: sorry matt my boss was keepin me busy and i just had to make daisy leave me alone in my room i'm sorry <3
Matt534: its okay i just worried <3
_lou_: no srsly
_lou_: i am sorry i am late so often and you worry so often abozt sth being not right and yet i never properly apologized
Matt534: LOUISE!! its all fine don't worry ^^ youre here now that all what counts
_lou_: okay i just read what you wrote above
_lou_: why don't you just tell annie that youre definitely not into her? i know we had that conversation a couple of times but still... i don't see another possible solution matt...
_lou_: and dave should just go and fu*k himself srsly how can anyone be so cruel to such a wonderful person who you definitely are
Matt534: thanks lou. i cannot tell annie that she annoys me and i cannot tell her that i'm not into her either that would be... mean. and besides in case you forgot aside from you and phil she's the only friend i have left since... you know
_lou_: have you met up with that group you told me about?
Matt534: i'm not wonderful thats just the way you see me because you never actually met me. and i still dont understand how you made that conclusion bc i am definitely not wonderful or sth
Matt534: no i didnt
_lou_: you know i appreciate your kindness and its so good to know that there are kind people out there who care like you do and people who care about everybody's feelings but not saying anything at all hurts you all the way and destroys you and this is where even kindness should have an end
Matt534: too scared too anxious
_lou_: i know matt but there's only two months of senior year left and then you can go to college and you ARE WONDERFUL
Matt534: anyway what about your day what's about you since we barely talk about you lately but always about my depression and anxiety and bullying and you have depression as well so lets talk about you
Matt534: lou please i'm okay when we talk about you. remember you are the one thats cutting
_lou_: but admit that we're not done here just yet.
_lou_: with you
Matt534: fine. but TALK!
Matt534: how are you feeling? truly i mean?
_lou_: i'm okay
_lou_: well... not so okay if im honest but srsly who aside from you still cares about my feelings
Matt534: i will always care you know
Matt534: and i will always be there for you. just tell me what's up
_lou_: its nothing its just i cut again and my parents just ignore it whenever they see it and my friends dont notice either and i'm so sick of being that popular girl from junior year in school that everybody likes and thats writes a's only i mean i'm really getting tired. of everything.
Matt534: you know that cutting doesn't help you right? what are you feeling when you do it? why are you doing it?
_lou_: because i am damn tired of everything and everything feels unreal, matt. and pain brings reality back. it does help.
Matt534: can you try stop it? there are couple of techniques...
_lou_: forget it i wont stop w/ sth that helps me so much
Matt534: god youre stubborn
Matt534: not doing it would be better for you ya know
_lou_: sorry i gotta go, daisy's calling me that dinner's ready
Matt534: we're talking tomorrow
_lou_: six thirty?
Matt534: six thirty
Matt534: and dont be late. i love you
_lou_: i love you too
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Matt534: good night lou
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ChitChat
RomanceMatt and Louise got to know each other on a platform called chitchat and became best friends ages ago, but they never dared mentioning the possibilty of meeting up. One day, Matt however decides it's time to talk about something.
