My Story 2017

January 7th 1/7/17

1/7/17
Saturday, January 7, 2017 9:07 pm
Sooooo! It's Saturday, everyone's favorite! We're also a week into 2017 and so far I'm still taking the L. Oh well, it's just one week, I'm not going to take it too hard. Actually, I probably am. Lol.

So it's Saturday and I worked. I work at Perkins, I normally love the job but scheduling has been sketchy and I had NO idea when I was supposed to come in. So I called last night at around 10:00 and was kinda like "lol soooo I have no idea when I'm supposed to come in" but the one managing wasn't like the real manager or whatever so she couldn't help me either. She told me to just call early Saturday morning. LIKE I WANT TO SLEEP IN. UGH. So anyway I set an alarm for 7:00, accidentally don't wake up until 8:00, so I make my call and my real manager answers and is like "yeah get here at 8:30" so I rushed around to get ready and made it right on time (shoutout) and got to work. One of the servers yelled at me for not seating her enough. Like GIRL I GOTTA ROTATE. U ARENT THE ONLY ONE HERE HUN. Anyway, the other hostess got yelled at by a customer for his order being messed up and bad service. Word of advice for you all, DONT YELL AT THE HOSTESS WE CAN LITERALLY DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. UGH. Anyway, I was very excited to leave at the end of the day. But now I don't know when to go in tomorrow. My mom thinks it's ridiculous and told me not to call, I shouldn't have to call to find out when I work, and I know she's right. But idk what to do, I mean Sunday's are busy for Perkins and I don't want to not go and let down the only two other hosts (we had 5 but two quit recently) and ugh I just don't know. Also, I do like being paid haha😂 BUTTTTT I wasn't in the schedule so if I don't show she can't get mad?? I'll decide in the morning what to do ig. But I want to get paid bc I need to pay my phone bill (yes. This working class citizen pays for her own  phone) and I want to go shopping because I hate my clothes honestly and want more. I'll let ya all know what I decide😂😂
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Let's see what else.. I haven't been sleeping or feeling good lately and I don't know why. I went back to school on January 3, and the night of January 4 I got three hours of sleep and went to school on the 5th feeling like garbage. And I'm getting a cold and it's been kind of rough. I had a tiny stomach flu thing over break and ended up throwing up and felt sick for a few days before and after but other than that I haven't actually been SICK sick.. Anyway, I need to find a way to fall asleep easier, my friend marissa thinks I should get pills but idk if I wanna go there.. I've always gotten weird sleep, usually like 6/7 nights I wake up in the middle of the night for no reason😩 but whatever it's all cool somehow I don't have any of those nasty dark circles or anything (shoutout again)
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LOLOLOL today my mom gave me one simple task before leaving to run errands. She asked me to cut up the veggies for dinner. I COMPLETELY forget about it and next thing I know she's HOME and YELLING. I was shook for about ten minutes but my mom cools off unusually fast, so it all ended up being fine😂 but I felt bad because it was around 4:00 when she got home and we needed to leave for church at 4:15 but somehow we finished, it was a group effort but it happened.
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Okay, more serious note. For a long time now I've been struggling with negative body image and today and last Thursday I ended up trying to throw up. I stuck my toothbrush down my throat and only got a little bit to come up both times. I'm just hoping I can get this under control before it becomes something worse. I've been dealing with body issues since around December 2015 and this is the first time I've ever actually done anything like this. It doesn't help that most of my friends have perfect bodies and the ones who don't aren't effected by it. They're by no means fat but not super skinny either you feel? They're all gorgeous and I just wish I could feel confident like everyone else...
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I'm 16 and a virgin. Lately it's been bothering me. I'm Christian and my intention is to save myself for marriage like intended but I feel like all of my friends have "gone there" already. I was talking to my friend Peyton and a super popular guy in our math class named Jordan. For some reason he asked me if I had my first kiss yet. I didn't lie and said no, and he and Peyton spent the hour trying to set me up with guys in our class. I'm just sure that the majority of my class has lost their virginity and it just reminds me how hard it is to BE Christian in a public school because obviously we don't all share the same beliefs, ya feel? It is nice to know that just because my period is a few days late I'm not pregnant😂 SPEAKING OF I got my period today even though I just got off of it on December 22 and I was pissed tbh. Anyway I was in church and I got cramps and I wanted to die. When I'm on my period  it's heavy for like 3 days until it becomes realllly random and and annoying. I don't have it as bad as some people I know. My cramps aren't too awful (usually) but I get weird pain in my thighs and my legs and feet cramp more often and I get bad headaches and mood swings and I'm super tired but I know some girls have it worse so tbh I'll take it. Speaking of the weird thigh pain thing I have it right now. They like ache and feel like they're pulsing?? Anyone else?? Haha😂 I'm also a little nauseous but other than that annnnd the fact that there is literally blood being like pushed outta my body through my vajayjay it's all good.
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It's almost 10:00 and I gotta get to bed soon if I'm going to consider calling work? Ughh. I have to wash my makeup off and honestly it's my least favorite part of the day. I just never want to do it. Bleh😩
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Well, that's it for this entry!! I hope you all had a beautiful day❤
~K