Chasing Shadows

Prologue

Blue.

The color blue creates a sense of calmness and helps you relieves stress, but it doesn't work for me anymore.

I looked at my ocean blue walls as my father carried me to my bed, he set me down then began to strap my legs down to my bed,

"I had to give you the sedative Bella. You were screaming like a banshee, I had no choice babygirl," My father whispered trying to convince himself more than me, as he buckled the belt around my ankles. There was remorse in his eyes, but that didn't stop the hatred that was growing for him.

He looked at me once more and began to mumble,

"It's for your mother, I'm doing this so we can see her again,"

"Isn't this what you want? You locked yourself in this room for weeks after she died. We're both unhappy and life isn't getting any better.  We need to become a family again,"

"Please don't do this," I whispered as he kneeled down near me.

"It's only a little pinch, sweetheart. I promise everything will be better after this," My father murmured as he tied a band around my left arm.

I looked at him through heavy lids, I mumble incoherently.

"Daddy, no" I whispered weakly, trying to pushing his hand away. He grunted in response as he tighten the band on my arm.

I felt my hair being pushed behind my ears,

"Ready?" He asked with excitement dazzling in his eyes. I shook my head, I wanted to scream at him to stop, but my body was too weak to let me.

I felt my heart start to skyrocket, the beating of my heart was a drum to my ear. I couldn't breathe, it was like drowning in the ocean over and over again. I squeezed my eyes shut and tried to count my breathe intake,

One, two, three, four ..

I felt a pinch in my arm and looked down, I watched as my father pushed down the thumb plunger as heroin began to fill my veins. I felt his hand on my face wiping away tears,

"Don't worry sweetheart, it'll be better soon,"

I felt tears run down my face as I started to fade away, my eyelids began to feel heavy. Before I can slip away, I felt another pinch my right arm.

"We'll be together with your mother, Bells."

I whimpered before I fell into darkness.