Sitting in sorrow everyday with no future except for what is given is pointless i hate my life i wake up everyday with a planned day i have no future my life is meant to be ruled by my diamond I live in pain i sleep with lousy amethyst and my one friend carnelian the only one i cant count on where not "normal" we were made wrong trust me i am reminded every day be holly aka holly blue she is the worst she thinks she is special just because she was "chosen"to be her agate (pretty much she forced blue diamond and she felt sad for her)i want it to all change a difference something new i am my own gem......
Carnelian is my only friend i lover her.she gets me......she knows what i am going through but at least she can keep a straight face i can tell she is secretly in pain,knowing that she well never be the same a "mistake".We talk through the night we don't sleep we don't need to we stay up talking I like the sound of her voice it soothes me.I braid her hair the soft feeling of her hair calms me.WE were i guess what you would call late bloomers we where like sisters we were in the kindergarten when everyone left we where there and all we had where each other I kinda miss it the quietness of the kindergarten.........
