Alice's pov
They would go away it hurt my head I wish they would go away.
I started shaking mark got the water opened my mouth and gave me the pill I was shaking to bad to drink the water on my own he drunk some and have it to me threw mouth to mouth out tongues brushed once I swalled the pills the voices started to go away.
he didn't pull back from the mouth to mouth it felt .......right now I can't have him hurt me like Tim I went threw hell with that break up I can't I pushed him away he looked hurt and pained
" I'm sorry mark I just can't do this ok " I said he nodded his head Felix came back in
" hey I just got down talking to your mom Alice she's here to pick I up " he said then I saw that bitch hell no over my dead body she beat me as a child and called me whores and bitches and slut buckets and cunts No she wants to be a mom she's 45 doesn't look here age doe
" come on Alice your step father is waiting for us in the car i already dis charge u " she said I got up and out on my clothes I stood by mark and Felix
" I'm not going with u anywhere u witch " I said Felix tried to hide his chuckles she walked up to me but mark stood in front of me she have me that look
" u will come with because and do as I say Alice right now he doesn't have time for this he wanted to go home now SL do I now let's go " she said I shook my head I wasn't going anywhere with her I can't I will not.
Mark grabbed my hand and walked passed my mom * gag* to the car we got in and Felix drove home I could tell Mark wasn't listening cause he has this face and it was broken and hurt and sadness I knew he wanted to cry because u can see it in his dyes but he's holding it back by biting Hus lip so hard its starting to bleed now I feel bad because I didn't want to have him be like this I mean I'm getting better at not cutting.
its just this depression voices that get me to cut but I just cry when they talk but I threw away my razors and I don't have very shrap knifes and if I need them dia is always here with she cuts up stuff so yea its just these voices first they started out as my friend but then they got tired of me doesn't everybody now these days
I started to shake a little and I guess Felix caught it cause he looked at me
" I'm fine I promise it should kick in in a min or two " I smiled at him he just nodded his head I kept on shaking it getting harder tp act like it wasn't nocitable mark noticed it shit
He pulled me to him and into his chest I smelt fexh pine chocolate and vinalla I stop shaking I relaxed into he got to the house
Felix dropped is off he said he had to tell marzia something I hope he break up with her she's just annoying to me and man her voice she wants me to dress like a girl and act like a girl I hate her so much
" Alice we need to talk about these pills your taking 800 mg and 600 mg why such high doese Alice " he said once we got inside
" I had higher dose to make the voices go away and sometimes they don't go away and I have to take 2 and I just sleep alot and it hides the pain and depression from pple but u saw way happened and if your wondering why I'm so happy in my vids is because I ma Andi wa-" I heard a knock on the door I opened it and stood their was my biggest crush of all time thee ..darkipleir
" omg darkipleir " I said tackling him on the ground hugging him I saw someone behind him but I didn't care right now couldn't omg I loved him since I don't know he is so fine I swear I got picked up I looked to see it was BT a ..TENTACALE
" ewwwwww" I said biting it hard it ozzed out black blood
" eh las who are you " an Irish accent said I looked up and saw anti I never has fuck it I never liked him
" I didn't do anything to you " he said I rolled my eyes I knew he could read minds
I just don't like him because he took darky away from my ok and they even made I dhio I like every time I hear it
He looked sad I rolled my eyes I sat back on the couch watching movies mark hated dark I could tell by the death glares I paused it I was watching beauty and the beast I was about to ask dark something one is he single and two do u thing me and him can be like that and three can he love me
" one yes I am two yea we can and three I can't because I don't have a heart " he said I blushed shit gotta cut my thoughts of more I watched the rest of the movieand watched it again mark paused it again
" wat are u too doing here can't y'all go to jack's house huh anti " mark said I looked a dark I loved his features his Adams apple his mahongey eyes his smirk got his voice it was huskyer than marks and smooth god man and when he blush he looks cute and that black heart its up side down god man I love all the things about him I love him but the tentacles creep me out but less now I just loved every thing about him o don't care of he got a fat scar I would still love him but he can't love me and don't try
" I can hear your thoughts Alice " he said damnit god to stop thinking out loud hehehehehehe I'm funny
