Blood And Tears (AJ X Abused! Reader)

How The Pain Began

Y/N's POV:
Trapped beneath the ground,he always kept me there...until they came to save the day. I know they're only youtubers but to me they're my heroes. Before you say anything i'm not a fangirl or a crazy shipper. I'm just one of millions who was locked away where we won't be found. He continued to abuse me,kick me,punch me and shatter my heart because no one knows we're here. Even after what he did to me I had hope because of the memories. But the day draws near, so I was worried,scared and nervous but eventually I said to myself "I will leave this place ending all the fears I've faced". Then I thought of what might happen "If I could go free? Would they come recapture me?" The answer was most probably yes. They loved me apparently but I always wanted to be set free....like the five dead children that died to William Afton in Five Nights At Freddy's. And I wont forgive the pain or forget the years. Those years ended up making me be full of blood and tears.
"No more shocks and burns" I would always say to myself time and time again but I knew that would never happen. I always wanted to have no more tests,no more lessons learned. I didn't want anymore of that torture so I decided to do something about it. So we would shout "Here we draw the line" and I would shout "Etched in blood of mine!" I knew that someday I would risk it all,for a chance to breach these walls eventually I decided that I would roll the dice,offer any sacrifice. Yes, I would of even gone to suicide to set myself free but luckily I didn't go that route. "And I won't live one more day with these broken gears" I always said to myself because it ended up making me be full of blood and tears.
"So Baby" they always said to me. I hated that nickname so much that I wanted to kill them every time that they said it but...I couldn't because they would kill me instead. I eventually decided that there will be no more crying, only chaos but that ended up changing into no relying on someone to save us. That means no phones,no lights,no hope all because of me. I had ruined everyone's futures but if you only knew all the pain that I've been through only if I had your soul would it lift me from this hole? Was what I thought back then but the only thing that I would see would be my hands forever stained with a thousand smears from the blood and tears until the man of my dreams swept me off my feet and changed my life forever.