PART 2...
"When It comes to love, niggah are just as bi-polar as women."
-PeaceTee (One of my readers commented this. Had to put it in a chapter.)
Ciara's POV.
I sat at the table hanging my head.
I can't believe he said all that. I man I know I like Tremaine, but I just can't handle all of this right now.
Before leaving to the jail house I had my mind made up and I how the situation was going to go.
Tremaine was going to accept what I said, told me his goodbyes, and me and Sharee would be out of atl in two days, but no. Tremaine flipped the script.
Talking about he like me a lot and shit. Please that nigga don't know what love is. Hell . I don't even know what that shit is. I've been feeling everything but love.
Love? Like what the phuck is that?
As I was in thought I over heard the man on stage annouce a person by the name of Arie' up to the stage.
She was a black girl, looked around my age. She had brownskin, big lips, pretty eyes and BIG natural hair.
She was carrying a guitar and was obviously shy.
"Hi everybody." she spoke into the mic.
You heard various hays and hellos fro around the room.
"Tonight I will be doing something a little different. Some of you may have heard the song "Drunk In Love" by beyonce."
"Girl yes." a random chick said and cause us to laugh.
"Good. Well I thought that i'll mix it up and add my own flavor to it and I hope you all like it." she said softly. She then turned her gutiar up and sighed.
As if on beat she began playing and at first it was just the guitar and it went waves through me, it's like the calm tune soothed me.
"Ooh yea yea. Ooh ohh uh,"
"I been drankin I been drankin"
"I get filthy when that liq-"
Omg her voice was beautiful. It had a Erykah Byduh tang to it, mixed with Lauren Hill.
Man I loved her voice.
It sent me back to the days where I use to sing and suff but that shit is in the past. After my dad died, I gave up singing.
No emotions. No nothing. When my dad died I swear he took a piece with me. Thats some real shit. Like....every since he passed...I've been looking for someone to fill that spot and I think that's where I fell off at.
My mom tried but she was also hurting.
My ex couldnt handle it.
My aunt couldn't handle it.
It seem like everytime I think I found something, I ruined a relationship.
And when it comes to Tremaine. I dont want to hurt him or ruin us. That's why I don't show my emotions to much because I don't want to hurt anyone else or get too attached.
That's the main reason why I have to do this. I need to fill this emptiness in me so i can learn to love someone else.
Because if I can't love myself, then who will.
