My ABNORMAL Thoughts

※ An Open Letter To Myself ※

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I've been thinking to do this stuff since last year.

But since I'm kinda busy and my thoughts were always bottled-up inside me, I haven't got the chance to start writing since today.

Ako kasi yung tipo ng taong hindi kayang i-share yung totoong saloobin.

I always keep almost everything to myself.
Cause I'm not good in expressing them.

Nagsshare ako minsan, pero hindi lahat.
I used social media but always in a pseudo or dummy account.
Para hindi alam nang lahat na ako yun. Haha!

Since uso naman yung gantong 'random-stuff-chuchu' dito sa WATTPAD, why not here na lang diba?

Tutal, wala namang makakabasa nito. Ako lang. At kung meron man, atleast hindi ako personal na kilala.

Since last year ko pa 'to gustong gawin pero walang chance kasi bukod sa ayaw sumang-ayon nang 'laziness' ko, ang chaka rin ng gamit kong phone noon. Lol

Tas may twitter naman kasi ako na walang follower at dummy FB account na halos walang nakakaalam. Haha

Ngayon na lang talaga kasi sobrang naipon na yung mga thoughts ko at parang sasabog na pag di ko nai-share o nai-voice out man lang.

Limited at masyado nang masikip sa mga social media accounts ko kahit pa dummy account lang sila.

I feel like I'm suffocating because there were people in it who reads, misjudged and throw rocks at me whatever I'm going to say or post.

I can't feel my freedom na. And that's too bad cause, it's the main reason I created those in the first place. Hayy!

It's my fault na rin siguro, kasi in-add ko pa yung mga taong yun. I'm such an idiot, ain't I?

This.
This is a stepping stone.
I will make this like own diary.

Before, I always write my thoughts in a notebook. I have plenty of those.

But right now, sa sitwasyon ko. It's not safe to write my feelings or thoughts in a piece of paper.

Na baka kung gawin ko man, I'll be needing to dispatch it immediately.

Enebeyen!
Lakas naman maka-Rizal nun.
Or Bonifacio.
Hahahaha!

Ang dami kong kakornihan sa buhay.
Ang sayang mabasa at matawa sa sarili. Yayy!

You can do it, self.
With this, I know, you'll be able to cope up.

And maybe, even if you cannot bring back your old self anymore, you're still able to do these things like in the past.

Expressing your thoughts and could not careless who'll gonna read or judged you.

At least, here, you have your freedom with your own thoughts.

So keep writing, okay?
No matter how random or senseless it might be,
It still a step you needed to take so you could help yourself in whatever battle you're fighting inside that crazy-little-messy-head.

Hahahaha! ^ω^

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MyABNORMALthoughts
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