Breaking Down Her Walls

Prologue

I push my way through the crowd. I need to get out of here, I need air. There are hundreds of people here. I just need to get out, as soon as I saw Him I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. Why is He here? Did He know I was here? Did He find me? What am I going to do? I have been running for so long and I have been so careful. One stupid little mistake and He shows up here. I knew I should've never started a life here. I knew I should've left after a few months like I usually do. I don't say in one spot for more than a few months. I have been here in this town for almost a year. I just couldn't resist the job and guy that came with the job. But I got myself into to this and now I need to leave. It's going to be so hard. I love him and I don't want to hurt him, but I also don't want him to know about my past and what I'm running from. He would never want to see me again. I guess just leaving would be the best course of action, because if I tell him I'm leaving he'll try to talk me out of it. He'll try to get me to stay or offer to go with me. I also know that I can't resist him, so if he tells me to stay then I will and that will put us both in danger along with everyone we care about. I have been on my own for so long it just felt good to have someone who cares about me again. I haven't felt that since I was 18, before I ran away from Him and everything. I can still remember the day I met Him.

It was on the day of my 17th birthday. My dad had died three years earlier. My mom was a workaholic and didn't care enough to celebrate with me. So my best and only friend Becca decided that we were going clubbing. Being 17 of course we had fake ID's it not like they are hard to get if you know the right people. Becca took me to a brand new club, it happened to be it's opening night and I still have no idea how we got in. Becca has connections and she told me she knew the guy that owned to club. When got in we were dancing, drinking, and having fun. Becca had to go to the bathroom so I went to the bar and that's when I met him. He was very attractive and so charming. I instantly fell for him. I thought he did to, but he was just using me. Using me to get to my mom.

When I finally make my way outside, I wipe the tears from my eyes that had fallen. I call a cab and sit on a bench to wait. The night is beautiful, there isn't a cloud in the sky. There is a light breeze, it cools the hot summer heat. I can't believe He's here, I have tried so hard to not think about Him and what He did for the past few years. I didn't even know He got out, I haven't been keeping tabs on him for a while. Well, ever since I moved here it's like I forgot about him. I'm so stupid. I sit on this bench for several more minutes until the cab pulls up. I get in and give the driver my address.

"Hey you're Lacey Johnson aren't you? The one who is engaged to Tyler Wilson." The cab driver asks, looking at me in the mirror.

I nod because there is no denying it. I look down at my hands, more specifically I look at the beautiful ring that Ty gave me no more than a few weeks ago. Ty happens to be the most wealthy person in all of New York City. He own his own company, that is actually how I met him. I applied at his company and the day of my interview I ran into him in the lobby. Like actually ran into him, I still have the coffee stained shirt to prove it. He accidentally spilt his coffee all over me when we bumped into each other. So that day I went to my interview with a coffee stained shirt and that day he gave me the job.  

"Why are taking a cab then?" He asks.

"It's none of your business." I say and I look at the window my eyes widen when I realize that we are stopped outside of the penthouse. I open the door and get out. I open my purse and grab some money. I throw it back in the cab throw the passenger window at the cab driver. I turn and walk towards the building.

"Good evening Ms. Johnson." Baxter the doorman says as he opens the door for me.

I smile and thank him as I walk through the door. I walk through the lobby and to the elevator. When the door opens I step in and push the top floor button. Once I reach the top floor I put the code in for the penthouse and then the door opens. I step off the elevator and into the penthouse. I look around and notice that Ty isn't home yet and for that I am grateful. I walk through the entryway and into the living room.  I set my purse and phone down on the couch. I head to the stairs and then into mine and Ty's room. I head straight for the closet and start packing a bag. Once I have enough clothes to last me a while I go into the bathroom and grab some things I will need. I put it all into my bag and then set the bag on the bed. I walk over to my nightstand and grab my notepad and a pen from the drawer. I sit down on the bed and write a note.

I'm sorry Ty, I just can't do this anymore. I can't keep pretending to be someone I'm not. I can't live your lifestyle anymore. I know that you love me but don't come looking for me. Please I'm begging you. I love you so much and just writing this is killing me. This is goodbye.

Love,

Lacey

Tears run from my eyes as I write this. I place it on the bed where he will see it. I lift my hand up and look at the gorgeous ring he gave me, tears start coming faster. I slowly slide the ring off my finger and place it on top of the letter. I wipe the tears from my eyes but that doesn't do any good because they just keep coming. I grab my bag off the bed and leave the bedroom, turning the light off as I leave. I head back downstairs and grab my purse and my phone. I open my purse and grab my keys, I take the keys to his car and the beach house off my ring and place them on the counter. I turn off all the lights and walk to elevator, it slowly opens. I turn around and take one last look at the life I'm not prepared to lose. Not ready to lose the one person who has ever really, truly loved me in my life besides my dad. I take a deep breath and wipe the tears from my face. I step into the elevator and watch as the door close on my last love. The elevator takes me back down to the lobby. I slowly walk through it, and to the doors.

Baxter smiles at me, "Leaving already Ms. Johnson?" He asks.

"Yes will you bring my car around? And tell Mr. Wilson when he arrives that I won't be coming back this evening.  I'm staying with a friend." I say, trying to sound as calm and clear as I possibly can. Baxter nods and takes the keys from my hand and heads out to get my car. I stand in the lobby waiting for him, a few minutes later my car pulls up and Baxter gets out. I walk out the door and to my car.

"Have a safe trip Ms. Johnson." Baxter says.

"I will, have a nice night." I reply. He nods and shuts the car door. I take another deep calming breath as I pull away from the building and away from my love.