There's Something about Bae

January 12th

It had been two days, kinda. Liam was suddenly aware that he wasn't in a call with her and she had gone. No explanation, no words, just in the middle of talking (smut over calling) she just vanished. He panicked and tried to call her back but there was no reply.

A whole day went past and he felt it was shit but didn't think she was the reason but he thought "she might be ok, you're overreacting" He called at 10:17 because he's never on time, straight to answer message, which it never does. It could be a bad sign, a very bad sign indeed, was he ready to lose this girl he desired so much? Was he ready to start the 3 or 4 or 5 year countdown? No. No he wasn't. He looked for comfort in friends but it only kinda helped, at the back of his mind he was constantly worrying about what had happened and if she was in shit for his actions. She always was, moron. He didn't know what to do. All he could do was pray that she had set up a protocol to tell me what had happened. He doubted it. His phone flashed and he wondered if it could possibly be her, it wasn't. 12:30am and the thoughts of the next day hit me, could I stay clean, would her help stay with me, will her love drive me to be a better person? He didn't know. Drugs wouldn't help but it sure would be more fun than whatever this is. He tried to reason with himself and say "what would She say?" "Don't do it you stupid fuckboy." She made him smile when she wasn't there. That's why he loved her. He just didn't want it to end. Ever.

I hope my baby girl feels safe. I love her.