The loud banging on my door cut out my music, it was my dad again probabky drunk and getting ready to beat me or Harley again. Things have gotten harder since Lanie left he has been drinking more often beating harder and starting to get grabby towards me and Marla. We all knew what he was getting at we just hoped his weekely hooker Candy would hold him up a little longer. I opened my door looking down scared half to death i could smell the whiskey on his breath it sickned me to my core. He picked my head up and smiled at me, Wheres Marla? Marla? i asked. He smikred then grabbed mt throat. Tears stung my eyes i looked up hoping to hide my fear from him. He looked diffrent not like his usual redened eyes and sloppy standing. Where is she you little brat? I..I think she went to Coles she said something about studying! He let me down i fell to my knees and held my thorat gasping for air. He threw his head up in depreste need of Marlas services. I looked up at him hoping he would just disappear from this house,from this world. He looked back down making contact with me he smiled an evil smile from ear to ear. Fresh tears began gushing from my eyes i knew what was to come and couldnt do anything about it. He started slowly undoing his belt i screamed as loud as i could but living in the middle of no wheres did me no good. He swung his hand so hard aganist my face i thought i lost all feeling. He held me down showing no mercy . He countined unclothing his pants and boxers. No 14 year old girl should have to go threw this horror.Losing my virginity so soon sacred me, and then i would have to face the fact it was with my dad. Tears stung my face. I couldnt see anything my face was slammed into my pillow and i could feel was pain coming in all directions.
The next morning i woke in my room sleeping with my pants down. Thier was no sight of my dad around the house. It was around 11 so i kneww he was most likely at the bar.I took a long bath until i decided it was time to wake Marla and Harley. Once i made my way to Marlas room i heard loud groaning. Cole was here. When i approached Harelys room he was sleeping half way off his bed. He probably got drunk off his ass last night. I shook him but he didnt wake up. I paniced and knocked on Marlas door the only response i could make out was 5 minutes. It disgusted me. Both of them reminded me of dad. I ran back to Harely only to find him sitting up rubbing his head. His hair looked like a rats nest and he still had on his jeans from last night.He looked up, What happened last night? Are you talking about your night or mine? i asked. He smirked, well both and do me a favor get me some advil and orange juice. The kitchen smelt alot like alchol. I walked over to the cabinet and grabbed a small glass and filled it with orange juice, it took at least five to ten minutes to find the advil it was half dumped into the sink. I slowly made my way to Harelys room how was i going to tell him what happened hes gotten so protective over the years Lanie left. I wish she was still here. She had a way of bringing us together but still tearing us part just as easy.
It was time i finally had to Harely and describe my night the night i lost my virginty, now thinking of it i could have lied but what was the point one night he had to find out when he heard the bed rocking or screams. Harely was so eager to hear what happened maybe assuming i had a friend over or went to a friends and came home early. So how did your night go? I hesistated and smiled. Well i started with a bath, and then some music i just hungout in my room kinda. I said.
