As I sit there next to her on the old bathroom floor, putting pressure on her wrist as blood drips slowly down her arm, I think of everything I could've done to prevent this.
Earlier today, everything was okay. Isabel was on her way to work. She was a successful lawyer, everyone wanted her on their side. I packed up her lunch, gave her a kiss, and she was out the door before I could say bye. I was still at home, I wouldn't leave until ten. While I was getting dressed, there was a knock at the door, I knew that Isabel has already left, and she didn't forget anything, so I wasn't sure who it was. I opened up the door, and it was her ex Alex. Alex was this big, buff girl, with beautiful hair, and a smile that could get any female out of her panties.
"Hey, is Isabel home?", she asked with this peculiar smile.
"No, she just left, why?", I said with this firm, but yet innocent voice.
"Oh, I just wanted to give her this gift", she replied, looking into my eyes. I looked down at the bag, because I hate making eye contact with others, only Isabel...
"Well, I'll just give the gift to her once she gets home", I said, still staring at the bag.
"Thanks just don't open it up." She shoved the bag into my hands and ran off to get into her car.
I closed the door, the bag had mickey mouse on it. Isabel's favorite. The little note said, "From Alex, To Izzy, P.s. I love you!"
I stuck my hand inside but pulled it quickly back out, because I was afraid of what I might find. I put the bag down on the kitchen table and continued getting dressed for work. Every time I passed the kitchen I would imagine what was inside that bag, maybe a ring, maybe a picture of them years ago, after all, Alex was her ex. I was almost done, about to put on my shoes, when temptation took over my mind. I sat down on the kitchen table in front of the bed.
"Fuck it", I picked up the bag and dumped it over, what I saw made my stomach turn. It was a purple dildo, with a note inside of it. Reluctantly, I opened up the note. It said "Dear babygirl, I know that she isn't hitting it right, so I gave you something that'll make up for the loss satisfaction. Think of me when you use it, Love Alex."
I threw the purple plastic across the room, I didn't know what to think or do. Were they talking about me? Did she leave early to avoid Alex? Do they still talk? A million questions were running through my mind, and I needed answers quickly.
I called into work. I couldn't process what I just saw. I laid in bed all day, contemplating on how I could approach Isabel with this "gift" she had received from her ex. Sleeping was my only solution, so I took a couple of sleeping pills, and was knocked out.
I woke up to a loud knock on the door, I unlocked my phone and it said five o'clock, and six missed calls from Isabel. I stumbled out of the bedroom, and opened up the door. It was her, with groceries in her hands.
"Hi baby", she said with a excited smile across her face. "Help me with the groceries?" I completely ignored her and walked into the kitchen to pour me a glass of wine.
She came into the kitchen and looked at the purple monster. "I see you bought a new toy? You little freak!"
"I didn't buy it, your ex Alex bring it over as a gift." As soon as I said that, Isabel looked up from the groceries, with a terrified look on her face. I handed her the note. While she was reading, I poured the last bit of wine into my glass, devouring it as if it was my last drink I'll have in a while.
"Baby I don't know what this is about, but you have to trust me, it's not what it looks like.", she replied as I sat down on the kitchen floor.
"SO YOU TALK ABOUT OUR SEX LIFE WITH YOUR FUCKING EX?!", I said as I started to raise my voice.
"Okay, I've made a couple of jokes but it's nothing like that, baby it's us. She is just trying to get to you. Don't give in", the more she was talking, Isabel was walking closer to me, by this time she was already sitting right in front of me.
"Why should I feel as if I'm in competition with your fucking ex? Y'all are still messing around huh? ANSWER ME!!!!!" , by this time, I'm furious, hands are formed into a ball, but I dare not hit her. I promised her I wouldn't ever hit her two years ago.
She started pushing me slowly on the ground, getting on top of me. "GET OFF!!", I screamed, begging myself not to give in.
"Shut up..." She whispered in my ear.
She started kissing my neck, sucking on it to give me a hickie. I Bit my lip to not give in, but she was making everything hard. She ripped off my shorts, slid my panties off, and starting rubbing my clit.
"Tell me it's mine" Isabel demanded.
My mind was telling me "DON'T GIVE IN! DON'T GIVE IN!" , but I couldn't stand it any longer. "DADDY IT'S YOURS! ALL YOURS! TAKE IT!"
She slowly put two fingers in, going in and out as I started to scratch up her back, pulling her body closer to mine, opening my legs wider to let her into my soul, looking her into her eyes...
"DEEPER! GO DEEPER INSIDE OF ME! PLEASE?"
"I love it when you beg" ,She whispered as she did what I said. I felt it, everything. I felt her fingers inside of me, and it felt so good. I Started to reach climax.
All of a sudden I pushed her off of me.
"You fucked her didn't you? You don't love me, you never did. You've betrayed me and have this hoe come to my house?!!! Giving MY girl a fucking dildo? And you want to come home and fuck me as if everything is Ok? No. It's not okay. Maybe we need time apart."
"I DIDN'T FUCK HER. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY SHE IS OVER HERE. WE HAVENT SPOKEN IN ABOUT THREE DAYS. IT'S ME AND YOU BABY. NO ONE ELSE. I SWEAR!"
I closed my legs and put back on my clothes.
"I don't believe you, I'm sorry."
"Fuck it. I'll make you believe me." She stormed upstairs, went into the bedroom, and locked the door. I ran upstairs and banged on the door.
"ISABEL OPEN IP THE FUCKING DOOR!"
Minutes went by, and my hands were tired and sore from the wall. I sat down on the bed, and waited. I heard a thud on the floor, and my heart sunk. I got up, and busted through the door.
I stepped into something. It was a puddle of blood on the floor. There she was, cold body, laying down underneath me. Her beautiful body, just laying there. I sat next to her, putting pressure on her wrist as blood drips slowly down her arm.
I started crying uncontrollably...kissing her wrist as if it'll make things better
"I'll make the pain go away baby, I'll make it go away... I love you."
