Nanashima X reader (oneshots) [Kiss Him, Not Me fanfic]

Do You Promise?

You are a shy person, you have a mad crush on Nanashima Nozomu and you aren't the smartest. You know you have no chance with him because everyone knows that he has a crush on Sherinuma. You and Sherinuma have been friends sense kindergarten, of course you liked anime but not as much as her. You never judged her because of her appearance... she was actually a really nice person. Ever sense her "transformation" guys had been chasing her and she always went to you to talk to about her strange adventures. I remember once during the school festival she came running out of the haunted house screaming and I had to chase her around the whole school. Turns out that Igarashi was holding her hand during Shinomiya's play and Shinomiya fell on her.

But when Nanashima your long time crush sense middle school (A/N idk if the schooling system is different but I'm just gonna say middle school which is 6-8) showed a liking to Sherinuma you started comparing yourself to her. You felt that she was perfect. I mean your kind of friends with him but he doesn't talk to you that much. You watched a tv show and you saw someone cutting/self harming so you decided to try it out. You've been doing it for a couple months now. You felt free when you did it, all your emotions would spill out with the blood.  You never told anyone and you never will. You always hide your feelings. You laugh, you joke, you even sometimes act sad just to hide how you really feel.

One day at school your sensei called you up the the front of the class with Nanashima. "So, (Y/N) and Nanashima, your grades have been dropping and you both need some help to graduate." I guess my grades are kind of dropping, I look over to Nana his eyes where wide open but he wasn't looking at sensei and his hair was as messy as ever. "I am putting you both in a program after school that will help you both catch up." Nana took a deep breath and said "I have better things to do-" "You are going to do this! You can not back out of this Nana?" Sensei's voice lowers as he says this, "Are we clear?" He said quietly while standing up. Both You and Nana nod as he walks out of the classroom. After a few seconds Nana looks at me, "so I guess we have to do this?" "I guess" You say looking down at the floor in shock that he looked at you "What's your name again... I know I should know by now but I'm not the best with names." Nana said smiling "I'm (Y/N) (L/N) and i know that you are Nanashima Nozomu." You say slowly rising your head up to see his face. Today was one of the days that he wasn't emotionless, he was actually smiling. "Well I'll see you tonight" he says walking away "see ya!"

The day flew by quickly as you where excited to hang out with Nanashima. After school was over for the day you ran to sensei's class. The program that we where doing was so boring and we just sat there and worked on the computer for an hour. But the when you thought you would never get out of there sensei said, "In 20 minutes you can log out, sorry to leave but I have to do stuff. I'll see you tomorrow." Nana and I wave as he leaves the classroom. A minute passed. "So do you just want to talk?" Nana said. "Sure." You and Nana talk for about an 30 minutes then you log out and start walking out the door, "hey (Y/N)" Nana yells as he grips your wrist tightly to stop you. You accidentally said "ow" in pain. He had gripped right where you have about 8 cuts from self harm. "Oh I'm sorry are you ok (Y/N)" he says in panic, "yeah I'm fine" "do you want me to check?" He starts to pull up your sweatshirt sleeve and you pull away not wanting him to see your scares "I'm fine" you say panicked and you start to walk away quickly. You felt him stare at you in confusion as you walk away. 

Shit!! I really messed up! You think as you run home.

A month passes. You and Nana are becoming good friends, you even started eating lunch with him instead of your nerdy friends.

One day you where walking to lunch. You most of the people whee already in the lunchroom. "Hey (Y/N) wait up!" Nana shouted. You looked back as he grabbed your wrist tightly.  You had just made fresh cuts there this morning, they haven't healed at all yet so it hurt like hell. You yelp in pain. Owww! You think.  You covered your mouth realizing that you should of held the pain in. "Oh my god (Y/N)! Did I hurt you! I'm sorry!" He pulls you to the side of the hallway while rolling up your sleeves a little. You try to run away but he's way stronger then you. He fully rolls up your sleeves and gasped at all the scares and the fresh wounds. "WHY? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?" You feel a tear go down your cheek. "WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!" He yells while he loosens his grip on your wrist. "THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR!! WHY? WHY!?" He just sees me as a friend, well that's better then an enemy you think. Nana slams you against the wall and softly said "Why? Why?" You see a tear go down his cheek. Seeing him cry makes you cry even more.

Eventually you grab his warm face with you cold hand and wipe off the tear from his face. You look down. "I wasn't going to tell anyone, I guess I also wanted no one to figure out, in sorry Nanashima." He looks down at you. "I'm sorry!-" you feel him warm lips touch yours and before you can even process what's happening he adds tongue into the mixture. You inhale deeply surprised. After a second you kiss back with a little less force telling him that he's dominant.

He pulls back, your lips feel cold. He lifts up your wrist and traces on a scare with his finger. "Why are you doing this?" He said. "I'll tell you later." "Will you?" "I promise." He hugs you. You burry your face into is chest "do you promise not to self harm anymore." You hesitate. "I promise" you wait a second, "I love you Nanashima" "I love you to."

(A/N: I'm sorry if I said me or I instead of you because this is one of the first times if written like this so hopefully I'll get used to it later)