i'm waiting
waiting until i'm finished high school so i can travel
waiting until i have my licence so i can drive myself to the beach on a summer night and watch the sun set
waiting until i have a proper job so i can buy and donate and work and do what i want to do
waiting until i'm old enough to have my own apartment
waiting until inspiration meets me and helps me finish my book
waiting for something to happen between us
waiting to be noticed as i yell my opinions to the wind
waiting to not feel like this anymore
waiting for things to happen
they will, right?
if i just wait long enough, good things will come
isn't that how it works?
because i'm beginning to wonder...how long?
i want these things to happen now, i can't spend the first fifteen years of my life doing nothing
oh...but i'm not doing nothing
i'm learning
i'm growing
i'm becoming
i'm developing into who i will be, i am studying important things for my future, and my mind is growing with each new thing i learn
i'm not doing nothing
it just takes time
but what about, "if it's meant to be, it will be"?
what then, about, "if you want it, go get it"?
how do i find the balance between those?
how do i take time and have patience,
yet work for it and have ambitions?
i don't know these answers
i'm not going to end this with a resolution
i'm not there yet
it takes time
but listen, because this is important: these things will come. and when they do, you will be ready for them.
just not yet.
