on loving someone when you do not love yourself
When you find yourself falling in love with someone when you do not fully love yourself, take a step back.
Think things over.
Try to understand why.
Maybe every day is a shade of gray to you, but try to understand why he is the color in your life.
When you have dark days, let him tell you why you are the color in his.
Take the color, and learn to love it.
Seeing someone love you usually helps when learning to love yourself.
When he has anxiety attacks, do not blame yourself.
Maybe you make his heart race, and his mind malfunction, but you don't have to be the problem.
Let yourself be the solution.
Let him look you in the eyes.
And breathe.
Learn to breathe together.
There are different kinds of therapy that may work better than talking or painting.
Let yourself be open to all of them, even the ones that make your heart beat out of your throat.
You can never know what can be good for you.
Even amidst the insanity, you can still learn to love, you can still learn to be together.
Sometimes love is the best treatment.
In the beginning, you may not want to love him, and he may not want to love you.
Love rarely cares what you want.
Love acts alone, but it can bring you together.
It can bind your heart and soul together with your self-esteem with traces of hope better than any anti-depressant, or sedative.
You may think that mental hell is no place to love, but perhaps it is the place where you need to most.
